13 Zulhijjah

Its another 9 more hours till i returned to my barracks @ HTA. SO much events are happening lately and Im feeling quite shagged over the weekend.

Firstly, I was in TTSH yesterday for more than 4 hours. My gastric problem got worse yesterday and to rub salt into my wounds, I overdosed more than 4 magnesium tablets and suddenly my skin felt that I was bitten by hundred of mosquitos. Was sent to hospital where i was kept under observation. Right now my tummy feels ok as I have burped more than I shit yesterday. But still haveto go on light duty as I have an MC from TTSH.

I would like to take an opportunity to congratulate my cousin, Nur Azilah as she's goin to tie the knot with her fiancee on Christmas Day. Christmas Eve will be a busy day for me as I need to be there to help out for the wedding. Another cousin tie the knot. When is goin to be my turn?

I think it is true that NS life travels so fast. PPl said you close your eyes and open it, suddenly u r nearing POP. Right now I am nearing IPPT. Feeling very nervous as the past 2 days I spent was lying on bed, recovering from the king of gastiris.

Well, there I go. Back to CAMP!!!!

11 Zulhijjah

Thanks to NS, I never felt so shagged in my life. Maybe it is due to my late night jogging during HRH eve and also the PTs in Home Team Academy.

I supposed to meet my bi on HRH eve and today but we often have to cancelled it the last minute. Supposedly NS and having a nurse girlfriend is not a good combination. But I really appreciate her, cuz she is not a very possesive partner and a very giving person. So bi, hope one day we can go out k.... Cuz i damn freaking miss you during bunk nights in HTA!!!

Currently my body feels so light as before. Maybe is due to streneous PT sessions and also on the run whenever in camp. Not really looking forward on Sunday, but for PT and body sake, Im on!! No more freaking LD!!!

Eversince being NSF personnel, my life feels so empty cuz Im being used to work in the morning. Therefore have to change my mindset every now and then.

And a very shocking news. My coy commander is a not-so-distant relative of mine. That makes him a not-so-distant cousin, who is just freaking 20 years old.

10 Zulhijjah

Finally have the time to blog.

Currently out of camp till sunday. NS for the first few weeks was a bit tough since im on Prep course. Means everyday of physical training and it really drains ur mind out if u are not mentally prepared. Furthermore, being assigned as the Squad Leader is a tough job and also u are always being looked up, if not setting a good example with squadmates.

Currently down with stomach flu. My squadmates thought I really "keng" but actually i do have gastiris, except that I dun like to be looked like ayam sakit.

NS really made me meet some new guys. The squad is ethnically diversed in terms of races. Therefore I need to be mentally open-minded to how I talked.

Next week will be my IPPT. Hope I will pass. Aiming to do 9 pull-ups and 2.4 km run of 10 mins plus.

30 Zulkaedah

This is my last entry before I'm off to Home Team Academy for my NS. ThereforeI should keep this short, simple and sweet.

I went to CWP to do last minute shopping for my NS. While having a light dinner at Banquet, saw someone from my past. Actually its not the first time I saw them, but aplenty of times. Its like so hard to continue the normal friendship we had for 4 years ago since you used to be so crazy about her. You also feel so sour when you think you had something in hand but at the last minute, it just flew away. Just like that. I saw her with her current bf. I think they did saw me, but I just didnt care to look or glance, cuz the strong feeling of confusion and feeling sour is still there. Especially you thought of the sweet moments you've had together.

But I have since move on. I met someone else three years ago. And now I dun want to let that chance go again especially when the feeling is so strong that I can blow up a bus(according to my sms to her). Hopefully everything goes well and to Yatie, may u take care of yourself while I'm away.

That's all folks. Told you I want to keep it short. Have a good life ahead and may you be well when I meet you somewhere after the next two weeks!!!

29 Zulkaedah

Its another two days before I disappear for 2 long weeks. Means I need to pack 28 pairs of undergarments into my rucksack and buy all kinds of magazines to kill time during OTOT.

NS might be good for me after all. That's where I will forget my worries, especially of splurging too much on food. Also, the worries of getting boredat home. But I will miss my family and also miss being online, updating this blog. Think I'm beginning to appreciate the people aroundme.

Played football in the rain with the MUSG people. Good players. Bad weather. Bad field. To think I got lost in the park just to find the field, only to be stuck in the heavy rain. Luckily my handphone didnt get damaged by the superb amount of water that hit my phone. What was bad is my tummy. I created a puddle of puke in the middle of a field cuz I didnt ate breakfast. What they didnt know is that Im prone to gastiris.

I think Im beginning to find love now. Actually its not someone new. Its someone I know for the past three years. Someone that I could share my problems with. Someone who is very patient about things. Maybe after all these 4 years, maybe I found the right partner, hopefully in life. Now just waiting for her answer. Only God knows what is in her heart. I leave this all to Fate.

27 Zulkaedah

I tot after quitting Mac, I have all the time to do my own stuffs of resting at home. Instead, the past 3 days have been going back to town to and fro. And the rain didnt help either. Rain has been drenching the lands of Singapore for the past 36 hours. Luckily, it helps me saving electricity at home too. No need to on fan. No need to buy cold drinks. But I do need long sleeved shirts to sleep.

Its another 4 more days till I go to HTA. How time flies. Just 6 months ago, a bout of chicken pox spread in my family, hitting me 2 days before my enlistment date. Hit me real bad, as I was looking forward to life in Tekong. Luckily, God gave me my wish on why I didnt get SPF. God gave me the chance to know more people around my place. God gave me the teeny-weeny chance for me to love again. God gave me the chance to meet new ppl. God gave me chance to write more nicer songs.

Went back to Mac for one last time this afternoon. Did see a few of my friends there but for a brief while. My managers all asking me whether I wanted to return back to Mac. I gave them the probable answer and said maybe if I dun wanna study or find another job.

Im currently in process of writing a new song. One will be titled "Invincible", a song about ego and rejection. Another will be titled "Sleepless in Orchard", a song about our heartland teenagers and youngsters.

25 Zulkaedah

It might be sad that after 4 years, to be leaving the job that changes you internally and having lots of life exp with you, comes to the end of the road. But starting from today, there might be lights ahead, welcoming u with open hands. Welcome to the world. Leave all the memories behind and let the new-lings begin.

Yesterday was the last day of my service at Mac. All the aunties were taking so much about my departure, how they could not cope with PC(Product Caller station, which was my fave spot cuz i can sing and ogle at pretty customers there), and how lame the kitchen will be without my prescence. Brought my digicam to work also, in case to catch on with memories of friends but unluckily due to shifts and also customers streaming in, I didnt manage to take lots of pictures with impt ppl.

It is also ironic that my last shift coincides with my Boss shift. Boss just came back from a long MIA and to hear the stories of my last day almost prompted her to pour the orange juice mix onto me. HAHAHA... luckily wat i said is my last day.

By the way the pictures are in my friendster. SHould take more when I come back for one last time to return my belongings to Mac. Maybe for the last time, maybe not....

23 Zulkaedah

Sorry for the hiatus fans. I finally had the energy and time to go online now after 5 days of working, frustration and of cuz, massive headaches.

Firstly, I would like to point out that Dec 4 would be my final day of service in McDonalds. Although I didnt get promoted during the 4 years, but I think I did so much here. Here at Tanglin Mall, there are so many good crews that we hardly get promoted. Well, I think I'm goin to miss great times with friends and managers alike. I will miss all the disturbing of my BMs (Back-sink Managers), the noise and the fast talkers of the Indian Crews. Not forgetting some of the close friendships of certain friends I would like to highlight to (Jackie, Aisyah, Basith,Aidah, The MCRWs). The managers I work with. The aunties (especially the auntie who always buy me Nasi Lemak if I work AM shift. And to the rest that I met during my 4 years, I just wanna say a big THANK YOU for colouring my life all these while.

Back to McD again, to think that 2 years ago I was conteplating to quit because I couldnt get along with my former boss. She is well liked by some of my closest friends, but I cant work with someone always reprimanding me and throwing tantrums with me whenever she feels like. Luckily, i just be patient and because a certain close manager whom I confidedwith, I manage to stay on till tomorrow.

And becauseof McD, I met a new friend. Remember the girl I talked about all this while?? Yes, she may be reading my entries all thesewhile. And to think I blurted to her who is the "Kid" all these while. I know she may not be a kid, she's all grown up. But then she might have lots of things to learn in the future, especially when she reaches about my age. I used 2 play around when I was 17, dating non stop with different girls, but yet still not attached. But it was at 17, I learn the pain of being cheated by a girl I used to love. It hurt so much that I couldnt forget, even forgive her for 2 years. Now she's all grown up at 19, happily attached to a mat motor, I just cant understand why Im still all alone for the past 4 years.

Back to my McD friend, yes, crushes might be fun, but dunt generaliseall guys as same andwill cheat you. This applies to all girls too. Guys might be egoistical, but some has a heart of gold. I dun say I have a heart of gold, but then I never had the chance to give someone my heart. So, to this friend, I know I may not be right one and I would never force anyone to be with me. But do think about yourself and ur future. May the force bewith you.

I end this post with a heavy heart of leaving Mac. I may or may not be back. The tears and sweat I work for all these years may not be equal to how much money I earn there, but the life experienced is truly learn. 'M' is for Manchester United. 'M' is also for McDonalds. Both are red. Both are filled with passion. May the forcebe with both.

19 ZUlkaedah

SPF rejected my application today with a letter, stating that i am unsuccessful in my application. Its quite a setback for me, cuz initially i taught that with a diploma, i would easily get into the 2nd interview. But my thoughts aint right cuz I would think they would choose someone who is goin on in NS and also those people who have already ORD. So never mind, Im goin to try again and again when I'm still a government conscript.

People at TGM have already expressed the loss of me when I'm leaving next Tuesday onwards. So many friends have already strating to congratulate me and of course stating the loss of my presence in the kitchen and my joyful mood during work. I feel really sad leaving Mac after 4 years. Eventhough I stayed as Crew all these years, I think i learn quite a number of things, enough to be a Manager. I just love the working environment in Mac cuz Mac is a team based working environment. Means when colleagues are down, u come and make them happy. Also, Im beginning to miss many of the crew. The younglings in the weekends, the aunties in the morning, the funny Indian Crews at night and also the managers (esp the bosses i work with). All have different work attitude but the end of the day, we feel like we are one big family.

Im now starting to take things easy. Im currently going crazy and madly with a kid. She may be a young, innocent girl, but one can know how the feel of love at first sight. Im just waiting for the leading moments as soon as possible, but patiently. Cuz building a relationship out of nowhere needs careful decisions to make the love go strong. Till marriage. Till forever. Most people would give up their relationship at one setback, but a good relationship builds on trust, passion, chemistry and most importantly, to appreciate what each other are doin. Even though your friends might laugh at you for choosing a kid to be ur girlfriend, but in the end you will have the last laugh when she grows up to be a mature and understanding women.

Time to sleep. 4 more working days till I leave McDonalds. Bye bye Tanglin Mall. Bye bye colleagues. Hello HTA!!!

18 Zulkaedah

I swear its goin to be a very emotional NS for me for the next two weeks. Right now, I'm feeling visibily frustrated with everything that goes into my life and I just dunno who should I talk to. I feel that my life only exists in myself and that I am not important or significant to others. Even my closest friend do not know me by heart. Some people even go for the extra mile; taking me for granted.

Im living in a world where i always make people happy by partly solving their problems, be a listening ear. When most of my friends are down, I'm the person to cheer them up, doin everything to uppened their morale. But when they are happy or being granted their wish, they just left me behind all alone waiting for another helpless soul to tumble down the stairs and let me aid them.

I just dun get it. Why I keep making people happy when Im unsatisfied with my own life. EVery single decision I have done ends up in frustration. Frustrations after another. Envying other person's life one by one being happy. Why is life so unfair to me?? Tell me, what should I do to have all my wishes granted?? What should I do??

17 Zulkaedah

Its exactly 2 weeks before I start being a boy-turned-man. I will be starting my NS-hood soon and there seems to be so many things I haven't done before the dreaded day. Many of my work colleagues at Mac have started to ask about when I'm leaving cuz most of them might miss my prescence (and maybe my annoyance?). Also, I fear of not having the free time to spend with my love ones often as i will only be around on weekends. I will miss having the freedom at home whereelse at HTA you will only sit inside ur bunks when u are not doin any training. I will miss chatting where in HTA, there is no wireless network to contact. Mostly, I will miss socialising, where in HTA, u only socialise with ur bunk mates.

Finally after a week full of frustration, found the girl I was looking for. Somehow, I found her profile in one of my Mac friends. There she is and surprisingly she lives in Woodlands too. SHouldnt give too much details about her. All i can give is that.
- She is 17.
- She is working in one of Mac outlets in WOodlands.
- She probably lives around Marsiling area.
- She loves to wear contact lenses.
- She just finish her O Levels.
- She just went through a makeover.

Its a miracle that a makeover can change someone looks but never a personality. SHould do that one day to one of my sisters.

16 Zulkaedah

I'm just feeling bloody frustrated nowadays and it doesnt helps the cause when United suddenly lose to a bottom three team like Bolton. Bolton who were playing their strongest team, frustrated United, without four of their superstars, to a goal to nil. Capitalised in the 14th minute due to a Gerard Pique mistake. United never really got into the game, until Anderson came on in the 62nd minute. But its too late, although Tevez had the best and most agonising chance to level the scores, United fell to their 2nd league defeat. Worse comes to worse, their nearest challengers all won their games tonite and this puts United in the tightest spot.

I still cant get over that agonising Wednesday. If you see my previous three entries, it is about the same person. That same girl. That cute face and decent smile that touched my heart. And I cant help losing the chance to know that person(although I think Carlos Tevez must be feeling more frustrated than me). Im also beginning to hallucinate her image when I am alone. This isnt the feeling of loving someone. This is the feeling of infatuation. The feeling when you felt you could get something on but in the end, you just gave it a miss just because you think she isnt the right one.

I also cant help it buy feeling a big sense of envy towards some of their friends. Eversince raya passed, some of my friends are beginning to find love. Lets call it Love After Syawal, when you find love after going visiting with your friends. Somehow, you fell in love at the first sight with your friend's brother, sister, cousin, uncle. WHoever it is. I think some people are just plain lucky to find a suitable partner at the right place and probably at the right time. I just cant find the luck and the love at a moment. Although that Wednesday moment had struck my nerves in my heart, but still I need a lot of guts to catch up. Hopefully I get to meet this soul somewhere over the next few days. Or weeks. Or months. Or years???

15 Zulkaedah

Posted on Thursday, November 22,2007:

Highlight of the day was a girl who caught my eye. Wore the same red t-shirt and saw her during the practise cheer. Dunno which store she was from (suspected it was Woodlands Civic Centre?? or Woodlands Point??), but during my samba beat break with Jackie, she stared at me long (suspected she thinks im a mad guy whose sitting like an ah-pek hitting the floor with a plastic clapper). Managed to see her around the show (which continued the eye-contact) until the time when she just stand beside me, to walk past me..... Weird, but her beauty and cuteness just caught my eye. Didnt managed to catch her after the show and the bird flew away from my hands..

Im just feeling so sour that I didnt get the chance to know this girl because right after the Crew Rally, she's been apperaing in my dream. And every time I woke up, I just feel this very "sore loser" thing that makes me feel so desperate to find this particular lady. Even everytime I passed by a McD around Woodlands,Sembawang,Yishun,CCK, BP, Bukit Timah and Orchard area, I will always look around to see whether this particular lady is around. Dunno whether the feeling is call missing someone or love, but definitely the feeling is still young. Just wanna clear such feelings in my mind as I definitely have other things to do.

Tml day off..... Still wondering and pondering wat to do....

14 Zulkaedah

"Using initiative will bring you success, wthout initiatives, you'll have a stubling block"

Yesterday was my youngest sis's PSLE results. Alhamdulillah she got what she wanted. Although the aggregate of 191 is a low lying scoreline for Express stream, she is still happy with her results and so we are because we knew that she struggled so hard during her final primary school year. But what she didnt get is the good schools in woodlands. There are currently about 8 seconday schools in Woodlands. But where she can go for Express Stream are only 3 schools, mainly Christchurch Sec, Fuchun Sec and Siling Sec. I advised her to put Woodgrove and Woodlands Sec on the first two, even though their minimum aggregate is like a few marks above hers because sometimes you might never know there are a few vacancies left.

Was happy that England was eliminated(Eventhough the first page showed me wearing an ENgland kit). I felt that most of the England players are a bunch of ego-maniacs. Yesterday they played WITHOUT a single Manchester United players and they stupidly put the best midfield partnership of Carrick and Hargreaves on the bench. Even the commentators agreed to my thoughts."Hargreaves is the best player in the country right now and Carrick, his partner at Manchester United, is also as good as him,". They also left out Ashley Cole for the erratic and unfit Wayne Bridge. Played Crouch alone when they have Jermain Defoe and Darrent Bent on bench. And you cannot fucking leave Beckham on the bench when he's available. Eventhough he is 40, you must play him as he is one of the best crossers and set piece-takers in England. He is the only guy who can turn the game around when they are down. And they also left some of the best young players in England out. The likes of Gabriel Agbonlahor,Joe Hart, Micheal Johnson, Matthew Taylor, Steven Taylor, Ashley Young. Why England never gave chance to these young and hopeful players for the future?? They are a big bunch of egos and the trio or Gerrard, Lampard and Gareth Barry shouldn't be given a chance to represent England anymore. Coz they brought about England's downfall......

12 Zulkaedah

Quote from Sunday, November 18 2007:

There is this one particular girl from my friendster who left me a msg, stating that she is someone from my past. Im currently finding all my former pri sch mates (may it from Jin Tai or Qihua) so that we can keep in contact. So whoever this girl whose nick in friendster is Qusyairie Quraisyah, please do add me up in my msn or friendster. Btw, u can leave me a shoutout on my shoutbox. (I do really think that u were from my kindergarten class but dun wanna confirm, just guessing). Please do keep contact K??

The person is none other than Hanis, my former primary school mate. Actually not that close to her, but its a miracle she totally slipped out of my mind cuz usually I recognise the person by face.

Tomorrow's highlight is my younger sister's PSLE result. Hopefully she gets what she had wanted. Have to save my stash to treat her if everything goes well...

Sorry for the bold lettering entry. The laptop's is sounding like a constipated air-con now...

11 Zulkaedah

Finally got thetime to update my bloody blog that has been in hiatus for a week. The week has been one of the most eventful moments for this year.

Today was Crew Rally Day for McD which means McD in the whole of SG come down together gather to meet one another to bond together and also to enjoy the day together which is full of activities. This year it was held at Jurong East Sports Complex. A wrong move by my boss ( who put me into Cheerleading, which i definitely sucked), means I need to get there by 9 am. Worse comes to worse, i went out a lil early and ended up there at 8.35 am(Chinese Garden Station). The station was empty but i can see some red shirts( which is supposed my profit centre supposed to wear) roaming around the station, probably waiting for their colleagues to come down.

The crowd finally come ard at 9am but Boss still hasnt arrive yet. So the red shirts had filled the whole Chinese Garden MRT station and wat it looks like a riot march begin to move towards to J.E Stadium where we started our practise cheer(wasn't really keen on cheering, there4 i took the clappers and hit the floor and with my whistle stated to do samba beats which irritated some aunties in other coloured shirts.

Boss finally came at ard 10.30am with the other 3 crews who followed her all the way from Chinese Garden Stn. Had lunch first(not nice cuz the vege just cant find its way thru my gullet), before going into the sports hall for the big show.

Overall, the show put up by McD was fantastic but applause to the MC who really cracked me with his multilingual jokes and some RA jokes. Get to know a few ppl though from other stores. Meet up with friends whose stores I attached to before(Friends yes, chio bu's nope). During the last few hours i was getting really tired and dozing off when the MC ask us to do the YMCA which really woke me up and ended up in catterpillar which I ran around the hall like a mad dog and endedup slipping onto a cotton candy.

Highlight of the day was a girl who caught my eye. Wore the same red t-shirt and saw her during the practise cheer. Dunno which store she was from (suspected it was Woodlands Civic Centre?? or Woodlands Point??), but during my samba beat break with Jackie, she stared at me long (suspected she thinks im a mad guy whose sitting like an ah-pek hitting the floor with a plastic clapper). Managed to see her around the show (which continued the eye-contact) until the time when she just stand beside me, to walk past me..... Weird, but her beauty and cuteness just caught my eye. Didnt managed to catch her after the show and the bird flew away from my hands..

Meet Aisyah, our former crew at Swensens'. Manager sak already(actually she was an asst manager at McD before). She was like stunned to see me and Jackie, but of course we caught with old times with her, asking how's life and all. Still the same small, petite girl minus the wavy hairdo but nowadays still working around F&B outlets. Best thing the bike is getting bigger than her. Haha.... Harap dapat sign on TP, nnt aku bukak motor lagi besar dari kau!!! (Doakan laa boleh?)

Highlight for this week is spending 100 in one day.... Pay my hp bill plus a new 2GB SanDisk M2 card.... Woohoo!!

8 Zulkaedah

A tiring and long day at work, due to Mother Nature's fault for providing us zero visibility in the north and preventing the Malaysian crews from coming early to work. It also mean another overtime pay for me. But too much overtime can make me a very soft and broken boy.

Also, today I was planning to go and find the duck rice stall which I always frequent whenever I was free after school. Guess it was Mother Nature's fault again and also passing thru Lil India on a sunday can be quite painful in ur nostrils and also the buses from there are always ful.

I've always wanted to reform 7 Inches back asap as I miss writing the songs and jamming with the funny guys. Somehow, nowadays some of them are MIA and with that I want to show how I can mix NS life with social life. And also family life. EHEM!!

I'm always woken up with this particular dream about a blurred faced girl crying while pulling my hands asking me not to let go. Not once I dreamt of it, but this particular scenario often appears when I wanted to wake up from sleep. It often end up in a cuddle and a kiss on the forehead(which of cuz, i did it) and suddenly there is Mum waking me up from my sleep, suruh solat subuh.

There is this one particular girl from my friendster who left me a msg, stating that she is someone from my past. Im currently finding all my former pri sch mates (may it from Jin Tai or Qihua) so that we can keep in contact. So whoever this girl whose nick in friendster is Qusyairie Quraisyah, please do add me up in my msn or friendster. Btw, u can leave me a shoutout on my shoutbox. (I do really think that u were from my kindergarten class but dun wanna confirm, just guessing). Please do keep contact K??

7 Zulkaedah

Friday was so sickening at BPP. I was assigned to tend their desert kiosk, ended up didnt know friday was their most sickening day, the customers was like wolfpacks and their desert bar was in total disarray.

I had two accidents there... firstly, i spilled their sundae mix all over their DK cuz the machine just vibrated by itself and topple the container full of mix... Poor me, i was drench in sweetness(but foul smelling) white liquid on my groin and feet area..... And there was no oneto help until one of their crews came visiting and help me with the cleaning. The manager was like attending to me after 45 minutes!!! And the queue was like freaking long!!

Secondly, the metal plate which hold the oreo thingy fell on me.... And it came with a loud bang.... Again, no one attended to me... except a few crew ard me that helped me... After 15 minutes, all the manager came!!!

It was a jinxed experience for me... but somehow i think ppl have to work together and help... i dun have much problems going to other store, even when customers are filling in, but someone has just got to stand up there and unite the team to make BPP a better place.

Well, today im kinda intrigued by IKEA furnitures. Went to IKEA Tampines to accompany my friend buying a sofa bed and a table... I find IKEA furnitures cheap and nice designs. Feel like buying a reclining chair but after some thoughts, decided to keep the stash in my pocket and wait for some other time... Maybe after I got a house of myself???

5 Zulkaedah

Well, here im back again after working straight for weeks. Been tiring. Finally got an immediate offday from my workplace.

Well, a few weeks more before I will start my NS at HTA. Also waiting for my result to become a Police Officer. Hopefully I will get in as firstly there are so many benefits being one apart from basic benefits. Firstly all police officers will get a free Class 3 licence. Also if you want to become a traffic police more better, a motorbike licence. Not 2B but straight Class 2!! Haha, means can buy Valentini Rossi's bike and ram it down the roads. Maybe joining design groups... No? I look like a ganster more than I look like an officer.

Its been 4 months since I had my Chicken Pox that postponed my enlistment and miss my graduation, but I think that has been a blessing as it took me an opportunity to get close to some who before that I didnt know and also to know a few more others closer to home. Sadly, it has been a very boring time and Im looking forward to my enlistment on December 11.

1 Zulkaedah

Its been a busy week for me thses past few days. Cant believe its the end of Syawal already. But I still see many people wearing raya clothes, goin ard houses. Maybe gt birthday party kot?

Beginning to loathe to go to work nowadays, since i gave them resignation notice(4 Dec is my last day!!!). Working long hours used to be a favourite for me cuz since im $$ minded but nowadays i just feel the tiredness and the loathing to go to work. But whatever it is, i need to work to pay my bills.

My mood hasn't been well nowadays. I think maybe it is due to work and of cuz, the biggest problem i have nowadays is that im starved of socialisation. But i do go out sometimes, to Woodlands Library. But mostly I went out alone. Sometimes I do get envious looking at teens with big groups laughing around, joking. Especially those groups with gals, can't help missing my school days.

Im now awaiting NS and at the same time thinking about my future and what to do next. Planning for a Plan B soon (if SPF rejected me 3 times) and of cuz, I do need a love life. Im tired of hearing ppl saying, "ouh, your time will come.." But when?? Im waiting for 4 years. 4 fucking years to get back to my love life. When time will come?? Getting impatient you know...

Today while at CWP, saw green guitar girl with her lesbo partner. Fuck sia, I feel so disgusted seeing them. At the same time feel a bit pasrah too cuz how come a pretty girl like her give up so easily in love and become a lesbian. Isnt lesbian love considered love too?? World is getting so upside down. So i do pray for green guitar girl to repent her way. Pray so much that my neighbour, her lesbo partner will cheat her.... (Y am i such a sore loser.....) Hmm....

Need to socialise a while...... Get back some other time....

24 Syawal

The raya spirit has died down these few days and I dont even see anyone wearing their raya costumes again (except for those going to wedding dinners). Its been a long 24 days since lebaran arrived in our shores but i still listen to raya songs being played on the airwaves.

By the way, the Devils were 2 minutes away from their biggest truimph in this season before Gallas ruined them all. We were 1-1 and 10 minutes away from a stalemate till Ronaldo gave us the believe that we can still be the champions this season. But a scramble in the penalty box in the final seconds allowed a strayed ball from Gallas leg to spill over the line and means that we shared points with the gooners. It was a mutual heartbreak, but the draw was on our side, given that we still have to meet them at home later in the season.

What infuriates me is that the media often brings down the image of United. Stating that Arsenal can be champions or this draw sides Arsenal. Even Arsene Wenger said they played well, but the draw was not on their side. Tell you what, the Devils have been playing fantastic football since Sir Alex took over the reins of the gaffer in 1986. They have never finish below 3rd place since the Premiership started out 15 years ago. They have always been consistent frontrunners throughout the Premiership history. No one can ever write off Manchester United off the title this early in the season cuz its always us having the last laugh. SO to those anti-United fans, watch out what u have said anything stupid about our chances to the title, cuz its always us having the last laugh. We are going for the Treble this season!!!!!

21 Syawal

Its been 3 weeks since Raya came to shore, but still there are so many people going around visiting their relatives or friends.....

I like the spirit of Raya in SG. Unlike other countries, in SG, people are still wearing their traditional baju kurong during Raya season. Just a moment ago, I saw an RP malay girl wearing a kebaya to school. So much for the Raya spirit.

Went for SPF interview yesterday and it lasted the whole day. made some new friends there. Hopefully will get into Traffic Police as not only we'll get Class 3 Licence free but a direct class 2 will be given. Which means I will get to buy Valentino Rossi's bike... Woohoo.... Please pray that I will get into SPF.....

Went out with Diana yesterday to buy for her bro's present. Not that Im sibuk2 but she knows nuts about guitars and need my gidance. Finally bought a Congress acoustic guitar that is dark brown in colour. Also bought a Chord book for his brother to read up and to learn himself. Haha, I keep disturbing Diana cuz she always feel clueless whenever i suddenly change the subject of our conversation. And the way she reacted to it is so cute.. HAHAHA...
(To Diana: Sorry I made u lost, but u are really a fun person to talk to, especially the way you react..)

18 Syawal

Nothing much at the moment except for a note to be noted of:-

Sal's a boring guy who never fails to bore his ass out of his life again.

Sal's statistics:
Height: 169 cm
Weight: 68.5kg
Loves: Manchester United FC, Family, Friends and $$
Love life: Non-existent
Works as: Mac Crew but nonsensical one
Where you can spot Sal: Go call his handphone number and he will meet you right on your doorstep
Why Sal is boring: Because he is an ass-h0le..

16 Syawal

Ladies and Gentlemen..... May I present to you, the performance of the Red Devils when in hot sizzling form...

Today United won again, this time another 4-1 scoreline to down Boro, means they have scored 4 in 4 consecutive games andhave won their 8th straight match in all competitions. The game started with an absolute screamer from Nani in the 3rd minute but the defence went to sleep 2 minutes later to allow Boro to come back. But the rest are just a delightful performance by Wayne Rooney, who played the part in the rest of the 3 goals, scoring one and creating two, to his striking partner, Tevez.

Earlier today, went raya-ing again. This time, I swear it is the last time I would go out for Raya. I agreed to follow my poly mates for raya-ing after Jackie cannot confirm our meeting to go out and also I was feeling dead bored at home. Furthermore, my Raya spirit had already died down in the first week. Therefore, I would like to thank all the 8 people whom I joined for Raya with, especially Nutt, who gladly prepared for us Nasi Ayam Penyet(It was very delicious and very filling though, that I can't seem to eat anymore for the rest of the day.) Also to all the hosts who gladly welcomed us to be in the Raya spirit. Went home at 7 today cuz I was feeling very exhausted by the time we reached Nutt's house.

Didn't know Nutt's house was nearby the site where the Elephant tree and the Monkey tree is situated. When I reach there, it look like a fun fair, with a stall selling the merchandises of the two famed trees and also jossticks to offer prayers. Now that's what I call good publicity to brighten up your neighbourhood. Guys, I just see a carving of Lady Whitesnake on the tree in Woodlands!!

15 Syawal

On Monday, I went down to City Hall. Tot I wanted to eat Komala Villas' to get a craving of masala dosai. Ended up with that and a new Manchester United Black Away Jersey.

Wanted to print Vidic's name on the back. But i went to every shop around there and dear me, all the Vidics prints aresold out at the 3 main shops. Since Im used to buy and bargain at La Vanita, decided to print Anderson's number instead(since there are rarely Anderson prints in the public). Die die wanted Vidic's print initially till i requested the guy to re-check his stock again. Tot wanted to go back another day to get Vidic's print but it takes another month for another set of numbers to come. Shit. So i didnt fulfil my promise yet. Must print my Manchester United white Alternate jersey with Vidic's name next.

Before reaching Peninsula, I had to meet this passerby in life. A Chinese Uncle, around 1.5++ m tall, wearing a flowery beige shirt and jeans, maybe around 50+ came to me with a 50 cent coin.

Uncle: Where to walk towards Ang Mo Kio?? How long can I reach??
Me: Ouh, thats quite far....
My brain: Yes, u can walk towards the Little India direction but it takes you 3 days to walk. Are you game for it??
Uncle: I only got 50 cents here. My car broke down..
Me: Ouh,thats a pity....
My brain: You go out never bring wallet, never bring ATM, never even bring anymore cash. You must be a beggar....
Uncle: So can I walk there...
Me: Never mind then. I give you 2 dollars. Go and take the train to Ang Mo Kio..
My brain: Pathetic fucker. Here's 2 dollars to fuck off my sight.
Uncle: Then how to makan?? later dun have $$ to eat...
Me: Never mind. I have spare cash...
My brain: Kanina!! people offer you money dun want to take.... Fuck off my sight!!!

And the conversation ends there. My brain shows how idiotic the conversation is. The next few minutes, I found out this pathetic uncle who doesnt know where Ang Mo kio is, is in fact driving a Jaguar. Rich bastard!!!

13 Syawal

I can't believe that im feeling all stressed up because of nothing. Not work. But nowadays I feel that i have no companions to share my time with especially during my free time.

That's the main reason why I wanted to work everyday. Because I have lots of time in hand. And also I feel like a forgotten man without a friend.

A lot of my friends suggested, since u have lots of time in hand, u better find a girlfriend. Trust me, that is the worst idea I ever come across with. Cuz the stress of having a girlfriend is worst than taking ur O Level Exams. The stress to make her happy. The stress of going out with her. The stress of thinking of spending lots of money on her. If only there such thing as "traditional women" nowadays. Women nowadays are independent. But to me, in this world there is no such thing as independent. Cuz we are interdependent on each other.

My only hope is, hopefully i find a friend who lives nearby, who can hang out with me whenever im free. Cuz life is such a bore nowadays. And it never gets right.

12 Syawal

These few weeks have been an out of sorts week for me. I suddenly have so much to think about nowadays. ANd some things that are not in my mind have been bugging me too.

These few days, ive been feeling that everyone have been avoiding me, especially those who never replied my msgs. I understand that some of you people are trying to save costs by spending less time on sms-es but it would be a great pleasure for you to at least reply a message giving me a warning sms stating you cant be replying my messages. That way i wouldnt be wasting mine too. Sms-es are precious to me as it would determine me from being either a good jock or a loser. For that, i would extend my heartfelt thanks for one of my friend, ms nuraida for giving me warning msgs everytime ur bill is "bombed". For that, i will take your word and wait patiently till u msg me back.... But right now, i felt that my handphone is in no use cuz its been a week since someone really has a conversation with me on SMS....

Im in a dilemma that could decide my future now. Im in a crossroads of either signing on with SCDF or police. Some of my relatives and friends who used to be in Police NS said that nowadays to sign on with SPF, u have to take your own initiative to sign on. Its no more of the officer spot ur talent and recommend you to sign on. For that, i need to wait after NS to sign on. SCDF also just called me for my 2nd interview, but im in two minds not to go as i m fickle minded.... HMM...

I just got another niece last saturday. She's a month ahead of time, therefore needed to spend an extra mth in KK NICU. Tot missy Yatie could help me look after my niece but unfortunately, she's in another ICU.... Sorry,bi!!!

9 Syawal

This week is known as D-Day for the world of sports, presumably the return of EPL, the F1 season finale that involves 3 racers for the drivers' championship and of course, the highly anticipated Rugby World Cup Final.

EPL was well resumed yesterday with all the Big Four winning their matches fashionably( except for the case for Liverpool, who need two penalties to win their matches, u lucky fags!!).
But what was intriguing is that for United. Thrashing the Villains at their homeground is not something common insight for u today. Villa has been the most improved side today, boasting 6 ENgland U-21 stars and of course their captain Gareth Barry, who has been wonderful for England this season, partnering for Stevie G. But yesterdays match shown the difference between a Champions side and a side that is in transition. Shockingly down 1-0 after 11 minutes, United scored 3 in 10 minutes from two goals from Wazza and another by a deflectedshot fom Rio. Giggsy completed the rout in the second half after Villa finish the match with 9 men. Ronney could have his hat-trick if he converted the spot-kick and a further fourth if his wonderful chip has went into the net instead of the crossbar.

Didnt manage to catch Rugby World Cup Final as i fell asleep during the pre-match commentary. Good thing I rooted for Springboks to win. And they won 15-9.

I didnt know Raya was a hurting experience for some of our Muslim mates. Especially the part waiting for your friends to come to your house. I had a painful expereince last year while organising a house-warming cum Raya gathering last year. While I anticipated 20 friends to come to my house on the third-day of Raya, only 6 came down. The others giving excuses like tired, having work commitments and of course going out with family. As family outings could be excused as i emphasised on visiting family first before visiting friends, you could have put aside work to visit your loved ones at raya. I mean work is important, but Raya is all about meeting your loved ones, mengikatkan tali silaturrahim. This is not Raya spirit. I always took the trouble of taking a week off during the first week of Raya to meet my "once-a-year" relatives. I can't see why others couldnot take off. Cuz u cant get rich just by working. If you want to get rich, join the "Fast-To-Get-Rich" scheme. The scheme, you can try to find it out on the Net.

Others have bad Raya experience too. Let me give you some scenarios:

• One particular soul wanted to visit his family in the afternoon. But received the call from his friend to come over his house, he asked his wife to cook. He waited for 5 hours. Afternoon turns to night and still friend didnt come. Angry, he decides to lock his doors and cancelled his outing. Next day, he goes to call friend. Friend's excuse: CHild was sleeping and didnt want to wake him up.
• Another soul wanted to visit his parents in Malaysia. But his cousin called, said he wanted to visit him immediately and asked him to wait. He waits. And wait. And wait. His arrival: 11PM!! Reason: Goes rounding and lastly visit him last as his house was the furthest.
• Another wanted to go out but his uncle called to visit him. But he waited unbelievably.... overnight for the uncle to come. Uncle came tomorrow morning. Reason: they decided to visit their relatives in hospital first. And they just plain forgotten their promise to their nephew.

All I can say is: we have two days of weekends to visit our relatives. Technology is so advanced nowadays. We have a house phone and a handphone. Some have two. If you dont have either, use the public phone folks!!!

8 Syawal

Life is getting worse day by day. Working less times per week. Not doing anything very honouring in the moment. People offending me in MSN and my SMSes every day. Think people has make me the most hated man in technology planet nowadays.

I find girls nowadays getting more demanding, unreasonable and unrealistic nowadays. Many want their partners to have this kind of things, this kind of looks and the most shcoking things is, the traits must be in the same boy.

In the past, i would try to be the kind of guy they wanted. Most of them wanted a listening ear, someone who would be there with. When i tried to be like that, they would eventually leave for another guy and of course, (sorry for looking down on some of you,guys) the guys is nowhere and worse some of them are pathetic abusers, bringing down the reputations of gentlemen.

What i found out that, im nowhere on my X-Factor side. Maybe im just not the type of person that people would show off to the people. Maybe i just dun have enough talents that the girls could show to their parents. Maybe just because i dun have any transportation, people would bypass me, thinking im some kind of parasite that exists in the world.

I admit i am a bad conversationalist. I have the same questions for everyone when it comes to conversations. My conversations always starts like this

ME: Hey, how are you?
You answered
NE: Wat you doing?
You answered
NE:Not going out today
You answered. By the time you answered, you must be thinking how pathetic my life is.

Nowadays, im trying to add life to my conversations. Like some jokes. Or taking interests in your hobbies. Maybe become a 15 minute fan for the PCD may works too. In that way, maybe it may add more colours in life.

Or maybe you can work it out by taking an interests in my life too...

6 Syawal

These few days i have been lazy and not in a best of mood to update my blog. Guess updating my blog needs a mood too. These few days i have no complaints whatsoever in my life (except to let me have more work and have offdays uring weekends to go out to Raya). Finally, i have paid my phone bills which amounted to a whooping 70 bucks, replaced my pants which suddenly 'shrunk' in size and of course lepaskan nafsu makan after fasting mth. And yes, i've gained 3 kg... which means im nw a whooping and healthy 68 kg.

Btw, one of the reasons of my online abscence is becos..... my bro bought a new PSP. and we have FIFA 2008 inside it. Nowadays FIFA wants to emulate their Konami Rivals for gameplay. Initially, FIFA is only good in graphics, but gameplay wise, it was so easy, that I could thrash Real Madrid by using Olympiakos 13-0. And that by using World Class Difficulty.

But nowadays, FiFA decided to up its gameplay, that by using Rookie, i could lose to Derby County by using United and that really infuriates me. Nowadays, whenever I scored a goal in FiFA, I would shout at the top of my lungs cuz it is really infuriating.

Today marks my first day with the new boss. All I can say the new boss is so strict, I can become a circus act inside the kitchen by exchanging gloves and throwing gloves everywhere.

Time to start losing weight and start playing soccer!! Here I go United!!!

4 Syawal

Friendster sucks nowadays cuz they just could not upload my raya pics onto my photo pages. But never mind then.. at least the pics are save in my hard drive now.

Currently snoozing at home as mac gave me the day off to recover from raya blues. Im saving my collection now to buy Man Utd new away jersey with Vidic CL print behind. Guess im jealous at some of the guys at ManUtd SG forum collection.

Ok guys, nothing much today. My mind is as clean as a whistle. But someone in my past is trying to msg me now... Hmm.... Lets not reply the msgs, shall we??

3 syawal (cnt'd)

Let the pics speak for itself!!
(Left) My mum's side
(Right) My Dad's side
(Top) The ones living under the same roof!!

3 Syawal

Sorry for the my 2 days of disappearance cuz i am busy with Raya. Have been visiting my family. So far 12 houses and my collection money has all been good. But the ironic thing is to look at my dad's family.

My dad has a very big family that extends till my grandma and my late granddad's side. The ironic thing is, i only see them once a year, that is hari raya, and so thats y i rarely took an interest in them(except some of them who used to be schmates with me at Ngee Ann Polytechnic).

The most interesting thing about having extended family is they tend to give me 'surprises' every year. One thing is to see that most of them ard my age are either with fiancees or married. I rarely gt invited by them(or is it my parents didnt told me) and suddenly they are married. The best thing is, u will see their kids suddenly grown up! Suddenly there was like a baby boom during the annual meet of the family. I still remember one raya where all of the mums gathered all their kids and posed for the camera. Its ironic that most of the 'kids' in the particular photo are in fact married. And some of them are even younger than my age.

Hmm, talking bout my extended family, makes me feel that i'm all unlucky and out of love. But what to do?? Wait till the right one comes along......

Selamat Hari Raya!!!

I keep this short and sweet:

-To all my Muslim friends, by hook or by crook, I wanna wish you all a happy Hari Raya ahead. I also seek forgiveness to those who i've hurt along the way, may all my distasteful actions are forgiven by u all...

- To my new friends whom i recently have met not long ago, thanks for taking you time to know me. Hope our friendship will be longer and last till the day we return to Allah

- To my old friends, thank you for herishing my life all this while. Just want to say on this early wee hours of Lebaran, "Bila nak sampai rumah gue??"

Once again, i end this entry with Selamat Hari Raya, minal 'aidil wal fa'izin.....

Day 30 - Can i be known as Ma'anani??

Somehow, somewhere this particular name pops out from my mind.Decided to make an imaginary person by the way. I imagined him to be an arab, probably from North Africa. With curly hair, dyed auburn, with big hazel eyes, very romanic nose, a goatee, full lips, hairy and be stocku-build, must be around 1.8 m in height. I would call him by his surname, Ma'anani.

I've been happy on how things have turn out for my partner nowadays. She have started smiling, our conversations have returned to her pre- 'very traumatised'- relationship. She have started to crack jokes and its a miracle she had started smiling barely after 3 months after that 'very traumatised' relationship. But somehow, somewhere, i still know that she is thinking about him cuz i somehow can read her feelings. Somehow i was almost there too, about 4 years ago, before i abolished my ego and decided to leave that 'punani' info confusion. Somehow the punani is now very happily attached to another 'butangkhina' now and im the one into confusion now.But i can feel that her story is much 'very traumatised' then mine. Hmm...

Nowadays im so confused by life and reality now. Somehow, somewhere, i felt that i lose touch from reality. I wanted most things to happen my way, what and how i want it to be. I wanted people to share my views, my thoughts, my base of life. But people are unique and have their own specialities and abilities. I realise i have to rely on fate sometimes cuz Allah the Merciful have decides on them all.

I felt im not being fair to most girls i have dated for the past year. Somehow, i often relate her to my partner. Why she is not so like her like dat... why she is nt so giving like her... why she is not easy going like her... My partner told me, that humans are not the same, They have unique abilities therefore not the same person must be like her. SOmehow i gotta change my view on this, but im just feeling comfortable of looking a a type of lady who is like my partner...

My very beautiful cat looking ex, that 'punani' once told me, "Y u never give others a chance to get love?? Y must u be so greedy to hurt others". I only said.... Love can only be brought to fate and that no one can turn away something that supposed to be happening to you. Someway somehow, that conversation haunts me now, as it now means alot to her. She was the giving one, while i was the very tight and very radical about my own views. Therefore that makes the difference of our situation now. She, the happily ever after life right now, and me, the old slob left on the shelf.

By the way... its 24 hours away from Lebaran. Chores checked. Ayam dah kena sembelih kat AVA tadi... Masjid dah start beli tikar baru.... What seperates me from Lebaran and now is a full shift at Lucky Plaza Mac tml....

To all muslims, especially to that 'p*****', my partner, the girls who i have dated the past year and all my friends of all ages, patik menyusun sepuluh jari, kalaulah tersilap kata dah kecelupahan patik, maka patik memohon maaf di hari yang mulia ini. Selamat Hari Raya, minal 'aidilwal fa'izin......

Day 28

Its 11:07PM.... Wednesday 11th October 2007

As of now, its 3 days to Lebaran and half of the chores are being done.
Since i sleep in the leaving room, around me is bags of curtains still awaiting my mum to iron them up and me hanging them up on the curtain railings.
It has been a yearly routine for me to end the Lebaran preparations every year by hanging the curtains before lighting up the house with lights..

But as for now, im in a total wreck in my brain.
Problem is, I think too much of the future.
What about now, the present??
Are you going to think of somthing that dont even exist now?
Are you thinking about big times ahead??
Are you thinking of being a successful person right ahead even though you are nt doing anything??
Are you thinkng who eventually will be the lady you will share your life with in the future while all this moment you are being rejected and rejected all over again?
Wake up SaL... You are still young.... You have eons of ages left. You have your friends. Your Family. Your so called bosom buddies. You havent even finish National Service yet you still worry of what things are going to happen in the future.
Tell yourself. Tell your mind. Take things step by stem. Stone by stone.
Before that you go down and scold the fucking cheebye bangladeshis to stop crashing their beer bottles around.
Now im getting more pissed.
This blogging treatment is not working properly right now.
Now i go and take a parang and go down to murder the banglas..
Be right back...
(Offline.........)

Day 27

Another financial bomb was dropped on me today. My handphone bill had reached $70. All because of my 1269 smses send this months. Yeah, i know, my handphone has been very busy lately. One is to layan people who are heartbroken. Another is to plan out the farewell party of 2 of my managers. And im the kind of person who hates calling if there is a method of contact called Short Message Service(or Syndrome if it was meant to me).

Currently high on CM07. Managing Monaco has been all so much fun. WIthin 2 seasons, i have won 7 trophies with the club without any recognised world class player!! Now on my 3rd season and also Portugal had called me to manage them to the next World Cup!!

STill luckless in love?? SO who do I love now??

Day 26

Its 4 days away from Hari Raya. The room is still in a mess. Im short of cash and Im lazy to do spring cleaning now. Nonetheless, im still not ready for Hari Raya.

Got 2 days off given by Boss. Guess she must know hw much break we malays need to have as our families are waiting for us to help them decor the whole house during raya. Maybe I will help clean the windows one day and the other day to wash the toilets(which i hate most!). The curtains have been put down and washed and a new set will be awaiting me on the eve of Raya(which im scheduled to work till late!).

To the guys who wanna know whether Im free of cigarettes, the answer is still NO. But im working on cutting down smoking to just 1-2 per week. I've stopped buying cigarettes already and im just waiting for the time when i can just stop lighting up. Maybe i could be an anti-social smoker!

My love life is still slow right now. Im feeling deeply frustrated at meeting new people cuz it just happens all the same.Im feeling like a bad lover right now. Its always after one meet, the girl will keep quiet. next thing i knew she's attached and there goes poor me finding for another true love. If only I knew who my love is.....

day 24

A memorable day for me, preferrably after spending almost 200 dollars on raya clothes at far east plaza. but not to worry as i can still earn it back during Raya and of cuz my bi-weekly pay.

Did bought Everlast shoes (finally!), but couldn't get the colour of my choice as they dont have my size(if u wanna know, im a size 11!). Wanted to play pool after that, but seems that the pool parlour at beauty world had closed down.

United won again this time and fashionaly thrashed Wigan 4-0 at Old Trafford. The game was frustrating at first, with Saha, Vidic,Brown, Carrick,Hargreaves and John O'Shea limping off the game, but the game was to be remembered as a game of fringe players. Pique did his best to imitate the rock of defence Vidic had built, but it was Anderson who impressed the most. He assisted the first goal for Tevez, did his trickery for the last goal to lay off to Simpson for Ronny to score. He also caused a mess for the whole Wigan midfield. And i didnt know he could pass very well and tackle well. If he plays like this everytime he comes on, he would be one of the players that will shine for the future.

So BPL, watch out this name, Anderson Abreu!!!

Day 23

Finally, after 6 months of emptiness and nothing to look forward to, i will be posted to the Police Academy on Dec 11. Finally!! And I got POLICE LORR!!!

But im currently at loss too, should my interview with SCDF is approved. Then it will make me choose another decision whether to be a full timer faire personnel or to wait for another 2 years and try whether being a cop is better than SCDF.

Currently addicted to anything that has Pomegranate especially Marigolds' Pormogranate Flavoured Soya Drink. I wass so addicted, that i finished 2 cartons in just 2 days... Hmm, talking about drinks, this year's fasting month is the worst i had cuz of the extreme heat and me having gastiris all the way.... I need WATER!!!

day 22

sorry guys, have not been having enough time to update my blog nowadays due to insufficient time. today im taking an opportunity to 'slam' some of my own people.

as most people know, Ramadhan is one of the holiest month in the muslim calendar. it is also know as the fasting month where muslims all around the world abstained from all daily acts, including eating, drinking,consummate etc and pray during this month.

what im not happy is i saw so many malays (i shall name that muslims here, but most malays in sg are muslims) happily consuming and furthermore smoking happily in the public, with swearing around talking about how to spend hari raya with their loved ones. im not trying to slam anyone here, but if it was me, i shall hide my face with shame if i were to talk about hari raya while consuming food in broad daylight.

As you know, sometimes women are excused from fasting especially those who are going through their menstural period and those who are heavily pregnent. Others include the mentally unstable, the terminally ill and of course, those who had wet dreams. But what i do not understand is that i see many malay men, heavily tattooed, consuming food and smoking and also making nusisance of themselves in public. Furthermore there are girls around therefore i do ,understand the concept of blind love , loving someone who doesnt even deserve anyone's love. The men cannot be excused often from escaping from fasting, unless they masturbate everyday or they just smacked their head on to the wall and lose their sanity temporarily.

I would take this opportunity to advise some of the muslims, especially those who dont even know that fasting is part of the rules of being a muslim, to repent and start doing your job as a fellow muslim.

Day 17

Today is one of the most important day in Muslim Calendar. Today, 17 Ramadhan, is Nuzul Al-Quran. It was on this date(on the muslim calendar of course), that the first verse of the Al-Quran, Al-Iqra(means read), was brought down by Angel Gabriel to Muhammad, who was seeking enlightment in Hira' Cave. Well, i can tell you the whole story, but its better you find it out from the Net.

Brought the new Foo Fighters album, Echoes, Silence, Patience & Grace today. The result was shocking. I thought the album was typical of Foo Fighters, full of hard rock, punk and grunge numbers. But this latest album shows the softer, balladier side of their songs. Some of them are acoustic, and some jazz(Foo Fighters plays jazz). It brings out the new side of Foo Fighters. I kinda like it and its to show that they are flexible in every music. But I prefer the hard side of Foo Fighters, during their Everlong days(Everlong is my favourite song of all time).

17 Ramadhan means 13 more days before Lebaran. This the the most laziest year i've been into cuz we have done nothing to anticipate the big day. Most of the things are nt being cleaned yet and my mum hasnt even start baking. Guess must buy kuih outside already...

Day 16

May i present to you..... Geylang is now known as World's Hell...

Apart from the Lorongs of Whores, the weather there is so unbearable. Me, bro and mum went there on Tuesday Afternoon and we just couldnt stand straight standing under the hot sun. Its so hot, even i cannot feel the fan and air con.

This year, the prices for baju kurong have been dropping greatly. And the best thing is most of the designs this year have improved, unlike last year, where i almost cried to look for a baju kurong that is cheap and nice. The ladies baju kurong however, are getting less clothes(what i found are mostly the old kebaya, the ones with corsets and sleeveless). Adding more sexuality to the baju kurong i think.

Im trying to avoid buka-ing in Geylang right now, but it seems there are more food courts in Geylang right now to cater to the many people who are shopping around Geylang now. But I prefer buka at Al-Majlis at Arab Street. Nice grilled chicken + rice and sheesha..... Think goin to buy the sheesha smoker right now...

Day 14

Sorry peeps. Have not been updating on my blog nowadays as i've lose a bit of interest to let you know the updates thats happening in my thoughts. Well, since u want to know let me update briefly on my thoughts nwadays.

Feeling proud as ever as a United fan nowadays, due to finding my fellow fans and where do they hang out. Its nice to know that whenever the team is down, there are always people who will share your sentiments( apart from my family members of cuz, they are fellow United die hard maniacs, including my mom). By the way, the Devils had their fifth str8 victory in all competition, beating the Rent Boys 2-0 at Old Trafford with Tevez making the headlines of the week( apart from Moan-rinho of cuz) and Saha on his second goal of the season. If they win Coventry today, it will be the sixth and it will kickstart my prediction of winning 23 straight league matches on the trot.

Just bought my Raya clothes today. This year it will be all silvery(paired with my bro). Wanted a sky blue shirt initially(nothing related to Citeh), but weirdly its hard to find the same thing as my bro as the baju kurung vendors often, and incidentally, would not like me and my bro to have the same colour. Just gave one vendor a cold shoulder just now.

Me: Bang, i want two sets of baju kurong, this blue one bang. One M and the other L...
Vendor: Ok, i see if its available....

After 10 mins waiting under the hot Geylang weather

Vendor: (Comes with one blue and one green) I have blue for the L one. The M one you take green.
Me: Dun want laa bang. Last year wear green already. Do u have stocks for the purple one? Or the silver one?
Vendor: No laa.... U take the green and ur bro take the blue.... Can have colourful Hari Raya. The rest no stock.
Me: No..... U dun have pair, i dun wanna buy. Why is it so difficult to tell you that i want the same colour (walks off)

Ended up buying a pair at the next shop and paying 90 bucks. But unluckily, Tanjong Katong Complex's bazaar offered one set for 25 bucks. Shite!!! If i know i should have gone there and save money... Goin to come back there to buy the Red baju kurung... Its so nice... Can wear for 2nd day raya and of cuz, for Friday Prayers.

Have not been lucky in love nowadays. To tell you straightforwardly, i think i want to start a relationship again with a 17-year old girl. But im having 2nd thoughts as i think im not ready yet and sometimes she's not suitable for me. And i think she's beginning to think that im quite a difficult character for her... Shite... Maybe its not the time but let time tell........

Day 10

Finally, one of my dreams had been fulfiled

A Manchester United Fan Club in Singapore!!!

Been online since 11am.... Great to meet fellow Mancunians @ SG

Goin to aunt's house to break fast later..... Ciaoz!!!

Day 9

Last night, while getting the attention of one of my Net friends(a girl, coincidentally), i put up this wordy advertistment

"Come and help out Salihin Foundation. No money is needed. Just donate your love and care towards the organisation and help raise funds to keep the organisation happy. Donations are refundable. But if the organisation is happy, no donations are refundable"

Just a laugh for my bored mind. I dunno what is coming into me nowadays. It seems like day by day, my mood is getting worse. Adding to that is my empty stomach and the surprisingly toasting and glazing weather makes it worse.

Yesterday almost gave up fasting cause my body is so hot, u can even cook an egg on it. Luckily, i went to consume two bottles of air badak to keep my body cold.

Not looking forward to work today. I just wanna go out and shop!!!

Day 7

"Love is full of surprises but too much surprises will hurt you in a bad way"

Day 6

Its so ironic that i didnt spend any cash while buzzing around Geylang, Ct Hall and Bugis yesterday. Tot of spending some cash after selling my 15-watt Marshall amp(it was a white elephant in my room, gotta get rid of it to get rid of the dust), but then my spirit of shopping wasnt there. Many shopkeepers called out to me to check their shop for sales in Penin, but guess Ramadhan helped me to save my cash.

It was a toasted day yesterday. Went for simulation test at SCDF HQ yesterday. The place is so deserted and has no trees. And i thought it was 36 degrees Celcius yesterday!! But i managed 2 walk from Airport Road str8 to Comfort Delgro Driving Centre. And didnt even feel the hunger till the walk in Geylang. No wonder Geylang has lots of sins! (the shopping and the 'foreign workers'!!)

Had a craving for Pizza yesterday. Thought of ordering Canadian 2 for 1 pizza but since only the 4 of us ate pizzas(Dad has gout and Mum hates cheese), therefore ordered Pizza Hut yesterday. Ordered Rosemary Delight and an additional chicken wings( for mum). Felt full and made me very sleepy today.

Btw, met a new friend. A friend of an new friend. And how i love her!! hahaha.. (because she loves to talk!!)

Day 5

I just feel embarassed for those people who don't respect Ramadhan. I would look down at those who really didnt give effort in fasting or adding more ibadah during this holy months. Y? Issit because you think its uncool to make your body suffer just 14 hours to fast. Or issit because you are just too sissy??

Im deeply embarassed in serving those type of people uring Ramadhan. Cuz it might add more sins to myself. If that's not enough, they make me more angrier in scolding me just because they are impatient to eat. I just pray that one day they might suffer so bad than those who went without food.

Also, i would like to take an opportunity to advise most girls to wear smth appropriate during fasting month instead of dresses which reveals ur shape of boobs or showing ur best figure. Cuz u have to respect the people who are fasting and ogling at ur body doesnt add to the ibadah during fasting mth.

Day 3

I didnt know that during Ramadhan, everybody would get very creative on their food. Suddenly there would be diff colours of the Kathira drink. For ur info, the Kathira drink is a mixture of condensed milk and barley. But this time, they add different colours and flavours to it. I bought a blueberry flavour. Unfortunately, it tasted like cough syrup. So i omitted the blueberry flavour from my list.

The Woodlands Bazaar was so crowded today, i felt so many asses with my bare hands. There was the opening ceremony of the bazaar and all the Woodlands MPs were there for the opening ceremony. The reason being too many as before that there were shows put up by the Suria artistes and malay radio Djs. And there were so many queues from some stalls.

For the first time, i never really concentrated on breaking fast. Cuz the devils were playing Everton at the same time we break fast. Was really "full" while watching it cuz maybe we were too excited and United won 1-0 again. I would think we might be the "lucky" team this time around as we have won matches by one goal three times in a row now. So I would boldly predict United would be Champions with a bacth of 1-0 scorelines.

Day 2 of Ramadhan

I pledge alleigiance to my body that i will not eat neither sniff the contents of a nasi briyani during Ramadhan.

I puked out the whole meal out yesterday.

And i came to work late just to queue up for briyani.

One 2nd thoughts i missed nasi lemak nowadays.

How the smell of coconut rice with kacang and ikan bilis.

With a class of ice milo.

Ouh....

But so far so good....

My aims of saving stash is improving, just spending 5 dollars so far.

But the new Great Spy Experiment album is itching me to depart 2o bucks frm my pocket.

So support local artists...

And any punk bands around?

The first day

Feeling very shagged on the first day of fasting.

Developed mild gastiris and mild diarrhoea.

Didnt sleep on the first day as international football was on since 2am

Worked at 8am till 4pm and half asleep.

After buka, went to sleep and didnt wake up till sahur.

Today feeling shagged again, luckily work starts at 6pm.

Planning to eat briyani dam today yum2.

Plans for tml(off day!!)
Do a draft on my hari raya song
Meet up with some friends.

Fasting Month is coming to TOWN!!!

To all my muslim peeps, ladies and gentleman of all ages

just to wish u a happy ramadhan ahead....

may all of you fast to the fullest and semoga penuhkan bulan mulia ini dengan ibadah...

List to fulfil during fasting month
- Lose weight
- Save up $$ enough to buy a new bass set
- Quit Smoking
- Be a firefighter
- Find Love (eh?)
- Be active always
- Beribadah byk byk...

Insya'allah.....

To Quit Smoking or Not to Be

If u guys have been chatting with me online or have been meeting me outside to have a chat, u guys realised my plans of quitting smoking. Yes, quit smoking, for me as a moderately heavy smoker, to quit smoking is a shock, not only to my body, but most of my peer's minds. Cuz most of the time, you might have caught me chain smoking plenty of my Marlboro Menthol Lights.

But what is the main reason for the sudden decision to stop smoking?? Issit to have a powerful lung so that you can run aroundlike a headless chicken?? Or issit my principle of finding a lover(partner or wife if u want to call it) who doesnt smoke?? Or issit due to peer pressure??

The reason is: My nose. I dunno if its funny or its a joke but somehow my nose could not inhale cigarette smoke. I can smell and inhale it thru my throat but nt my nose. Cuz if i managed to inhale the hell of all farts, i will sneeze so strong, it would create a mini breeze. Thats y i do not like to smoke in a group. I rather smoke alone and nt risk myself being Sneezy the rest of the day.

But today i did turn back on my promise. Did smoke a stick cuz i just feel stressed a bit these days. Maybe because of fatigue. Whatever it is, im goin to aim "Free Sal from Cigarettes" Day on October 1. If Taufik Batisah can do it, so do I....

Ni ai wo, ai shi ha?

Nowadays, my dating life is so active. Just three weeks alone and i've been out with 3 diff girls (excluding Yatie). Im beginning to feel myself as a flirt and i find all the gals i went out with all quite attractive. Its not that i want to show my collection of gal frens but i hope people wont misjudge me for what im not. Many people said since we have a single life, we ought to go out and flirt and go out with as many people as you can, but i have aconservative mind about this. I just hope that one day, i will be able to find the right one, instead of continuing to wander around, looking at who is the right one for us.

England won yesterday but who cares? United till i die!!!!

Love is not perfect

Love can be beautiful if everything goes as planned. Falling in love, hugs and kisses, marriage(s), kids and finally a beautiful home. But love can be a manipulating disease if its not followed to plan. Depression, cheated, bigamy etc etc. And the list goes on.

Love can be hurting if u fall in love with the wrong person. Especially overposessive and jealous lover. These kind of lovers are the biggest hurters in the love industry. They can hurt you, emotionally and physically and it can even lead you to insanity. Sometimes if we have the luck, they might drive themselves to insanity.

Another kind of poisoned love are the "let-me-try-you" lovers. Especially those with video cams and camera phones. Most of them prayed on curious teens in chat rooms. When they have the chance, these "lovers" will invite you to their homes and have sex with you, with camera on. After the sinful acts, they will threaten with "do not leave me" promises and will spread your videos if you done so.

Love can kill you after all, if you dont know how to control your feelings, passions and of course your partner. Cuz in the end, love might haunt you. Guess love is not beautiful after all

A date..... With our ancestors

Had a nice outing with Yatie just now.
Its been a long time since i had went out with her.
So long, it was just our second date together since knowing her in June 2005.
Hw fast time goes.
Went to Secret Receipe @ VivoCity and had quite a sumptous meal. Especially like the banana split.
After that we went around. Feeling bored, I suggested goin to Sentosa.
Did got lost for a moment esp surprise2!! It was my first time stepping into Sentosa since 1997.
Its been 10 years and Sentosa had changed. No more nice ferry terminal. No more Volcano Land and Fantasy Island.
Did went to Images of Singapore (courtesy of a "complimentary" ticket). It was a great experience learning about Singapore the interactive way. I would recommend tourists to go there to learn more abt SG.
But after the date, I felt a feeling that I never felt.
Cuz it made me felt that i dun wanna date anyone else.
Cuz i felt very2 comfortable goin' out with her.
I also think that off most girls that i know, i seem to have the same thoughts as her...
Maybe coincidental.... Hmm... Stay tuned....
Hopefully more o the hangouts, Yatie...
Next time, Taufik's hangout k??

Play with hair...

To me, of all the girls seen features, i always like to look at their hair. I dunno y but whenever i met with any girls, i seem to like touching and playing ard with their hair. It is not being obsessed with hairs but i think a girl's hairstyle can change their look totally and see whether it can match their faces or not.

I like girls who used clariol herbal essences, esp the pink coloured solution. I used the shampoo before and the fragrance of the shampoo really sticks onto ur hair for long. But I just dont go around smellin' people's hair. I am not a sicko. I'm just "curious".

Other than hair, what attracts their features is their eyes cuz when u talk to them, u feel the tinge while staring at their eyes. To me, it makes myself really concentrate on what they are talking so that ppl would nt misjudge me for taking other chances. For others, it might mean second base(watch american pie for the answer). But what i do not like is eyes with tinted lenses, especially asians cuz it makes them look like ghosts.

ok then, enough for the infatuation of girls. Might come back later to enter somemore thoughts...

i seem not lovin' it anymore

Nowadays, i dun feel the enthusiasm while working cuz all my good friends had gone and im not working as often as i wanted.

When i first started out, the store has so many youngsters and all of them made me look forward to work. We had so much fun while working especially me and a few former workmates always take turns to prank unsuspecting colleagues (esp letting ppl drink pickled or onion water), smoke breaks, talking cock in the kitchen and the best thing is, since my store used to have lots of malay colleagues, we often break fast together.

Nwadays, most of them had gone. The guys had gone to NS while the gals had outgrown the job and had look elsewhere to find a job with better pay. Only few of us left and they also arent there often. Furthermore, what infuriates me more as i'm often cut off the schedule last minute and being replaced by someone new. What happened to the more experienced crew? And if i'm working, they also cut of my hours and that will of affect my pay. I often complained to them abt this but what i get is that they told me they dun have enuf money to pay me. Right now, im just hoping that either my NS letter or the SCDF letter will come sooner than expected. If not, i will resign right after the Crew Rally.

I'm beginning to be addicted to the Thrills. Their latest album, Teenager reminds me of Suede, but their sound is more like the emotive expression of the 80's. Even their music video and what they sing about looks like the 80's. Btw, they are one of the more successful band to come out from Ireland. My fave song frm them? Whatever happened to Corey Haim?

Nagging round the clock..... hate it...

I hate staying at hm during off days. Cuz i'll be either forced to do hsework or do errands that i totally hate. I rather go somewhere to relax with my guitar or just relaxing by the beach.

I totally hate ppl nagging at me. Cuz it really adds frustration to my lame life(since June) and also makes me feel agitated.

Sometimes i do think ppl nag to me unnecessarily. Esp my dad. If he's at hm, we cannot do anything esp watching the TV. Esp on Sensasi. I hate the Sensasi free preview cuz my dad will hog on the preview channel to watch Indo sinetrons and watching them really hurts ur conscience. Cuz indo sinetrons are really stupid. Its always....

"Boy saw girl. Fall in love at first sight. Girl is either disabled or poor. Boy's parents against the reunion of their son with the misfortunate girl. One of the boy's companion totally hates the girl to the core and hatches plan to make her disappear. Boy will tell bad things abt the girl to the mom. Boy is reluctant to leave girl. Boy's companion will find another girl to hatch plan. The other girl says the boy makes her preggers. Boy have to marry the other girl due to status and also to cover the girl's sins. Girl leaves boy and run away, often dancing and crying all the way
and the rest is like well, typical indo love story....."

My dad has a weird character too. Sometimes when he ask abt smth, we will answer. And he asked the same thing 10 mins later. And 10 mins later. And 10 mins later. He also dun like us watching football, cuz he say its a waste of money subscribing to cable to watch football. And whatever things we do, he will also object. Sometimes i do sympathise him cuz nwadays he's nt hving the best health now, but its irritating for someone to object u in everything he does. And my mum will rub salt into my wounds, asking me to give in to his complaints.

Abt wasting money to watch football, thats the no. 1 reason y we subscribe to cable. Cuz my family are a bunch of Devils fans. We often watch football 24/7. Even if United plays at 3 am, everyone would wake up, even my mum. Often we would nt wake her up, but sometimes she would just take a peek outside and sometimes join in the match fun too.. I rather watch football 24/7 than to endure 2 hours of indo sinetrons, which would be mind bugging on why the leading actors in each sinetrons are so foolish and stupid and have no balls. Serious.....

Out of Nothing Part II

Devils won again. 2 out of 2. Another 1-0 victory. Means finally i will break out of the United "fast" as for now( Unless they lose another 2 matches, then i will fast again).

This time, the devils did show their flair and attacking pace. For thefirst half, they cant seem to penetrate the black cats' defence, who has Craig Gordon guarding in between the posts. Anderson and Tevez are nt out and out strikers who can easily be the target man. Hargreaves seems to do all the dirty work behind. Evra wa terrific at the left flank but they cant seem to have the best of touches in the final 3rd of the attack.

Finally, out comes Saha. Out of the teatment table after 6 mths out. After not scoring since against Citeh on Dec 9 last year. Finally, attacks can be seen as wat united done last season. Crosses into deep into the box. Chances after chances created by Hargreaves,Tevez and Vidic. At 71 mins, the floodgates opened up. Nani's deep cross from the corner kick let a heavily marked Saha headed the ball into an open net, which Gordon had left it cuz he thought Saha wasnt able to head the corner.

What I was not happy was, United seems to be content after taking the lead. What if Ross Wallace or Michael Chopra had scored from the subsequent free kicks after that? What if Brown or Vidic done another stupid mistake again? All along i felt this season, United will be winning the next 23 games with a 1-0 win. Cuz they seemed to be out of ideas to score more. Bring back Roon and Ron. And buy a new targetman in January.

7Inches

I'm a wannabe musician. The reason is because i'm still new at the scene, maybe thats y i called myself that.Started off as a vocalist, then formed 7Inches with hree other guys, first as a guitarist but when brandon left, i became the bassist with the band.

7Inches had only one gig together, that is a gig at the PhunkBar On Feb 3rd this year. A good turnout, maybe because its due to our songs and also our friends, whom we hv invited to watch the gig. We also appeared in Danielle, a Suria series about a band.( It was during a fight scene on episode 6, where one of the guys stole the song and played at Wee Lee studio in Geylang. Yes, i was the bassist wearing a Lost Prophets tee.). We even had 4 original songs in the works but unfortunately due to time constraints, we didnt have time to record them down.

Nwadays, 7Inches is in hiatus. My own sweat and project, stopped due to NS and work commitments. Drummer Haridass is serving the country in Eagle Company,Tekong, while Khai is currently working in Sentosa as a ?????(I forgot). While me and lead shredder Kamal is free and around, we currently trying to find a side project but unfortunately, cant find a suitable one to work with.. hmm.. maybe we can practise new songs while waiting the other two to be available.

Also kinda frustrated when many considered me a beginner when i could play the bass by ear. Maybe its because i played it only for a year.

Currently listening to: 1973 by James Blunt(Nice song)

Lips of an angel

Frankly, I hate ppl judging me for i am not. Most ppl think i'm a mat because i look like one and shld stay away frm them. To me a "mat" thinks about three things in his life. Bikes, sex and money. I rarely think about those three. I am even not interested in riding a bike. I am sick of ppl avoiding me for thinking for what i am not.

I am the kind of a person who likes to express his own views and stand up for it. When i feel that i need to say smthing out, i just say it. But some ppl just dun except reality or what he is. In the end, they just dun accept the comments being thrown at them and calling ppl like me ppl who are there to ruin their life.

Just a few mths ago, a girl in my MSN told me that i dun understand women cuz i dun understand her about her views of getting married at a young age. Tell me, if u r 18, still schooling and just have a bf who is like 10 yrs older than u but just met, do u think u r ready for marriage?? Does having a stable job means u r ready for marriage. To me marriage is abt these three impt things: trust, stability and love. Being with an older man doesnt meant love. Being in a relationship doesnt mean it is stable. But what angers me is hw quick she is to judge me that i dun understand women. Well, im nt in the league to say that i know what women wants but i know what my gal pals preferences. Doesnt mean i dun agree on one girl's view doesnt mean i dun understand the entire women race.

I also hate being call a playboy. I admit, i do flirt around sociably and not for sex. I do have a good number of female friends. Reason being, girls are very good listeners. Even i think a minah is also a good listener. So dun go ard saying im a playboy. U can call me a flirt but nt a playboy cuz i dun go ard fucking girls for fun.

So 2 the girl who misunderstood me, we could have been good listening partners, we could even be more than that, but u choose to piss me off for smth that u think u r rite. U know who u are and i appreciate it.

Currently listening to: Lips of an angel(Hinder)

The aftermath of the match

It was the day after the first win for the Devils. Feeling very relieved but at the same time worried whether my prediction (see the entry far below) is right and spot on. The deciding date that will see whether my prediction is accurate will be on matchday 27.

Im still on my United "fast". (See entry when United lose to the f*cking Citeh) My united kits are still stored under the bed and if United should beat Sunderland next week, i would wash them just in case no cockroaches went living into my shirts. The only thing that i can see the light of United is my bro's birthday clock.

I've decided that I want to work in SCDF either as a Paramedic or a Fire Rescue Officer. Did applied online in the scdf website and gosh, the questionnaires really remined me of Project Management module I took last year.(Interesting it would helped me now.) Now im just hpoing that they would accept me. If i got accepted, no NS at Tekong!!!

McD schedule is really crazy on Wednesday. Imagine i worked from 5 till 12 on that day and on Thursday i started work at 9am... WTF... means only 4 hours of sleep for me. And they giving me the offday on a Tuesday??? What the hell am i going to do on tuesday?? Go and lock myself in a room playing Championship Manager. Or stay glued on TV to watch reruns of Indo sinetrons on Sensasi?? I'd be rather writing a song on lame excuses....

I really aiming the age of 27 to get married. I think my aim is getting closer now, if i managed to find a job as soon as possible.

Why football is bad for life?

Ladies and Gentleman, I am "sorry" to inform you that the Red Devils had finally won. Without giving 100%. Without the stars. And out of nothing.

I almost had hypertension while watching the match just now. The defence looks shabby. They almost gave away 2 goals. And VDS was also as rubbish. He keeps doing simple mistakes that a top class goalie shouldnt do. Brown and Ferdinand was also rubbish. Brown could not contest the speed of the new welsh wizard Gareth Bale and Ferdinand almost gave away a goal to Dimitar Berbatov. But they were made to atone their mistakes with two goal-line clearence that saved United from crashing dwn the table.

The attacks were also rubbish. Nani were giving away silly fouls that a schoolboy could have done. Tevez was hardworking, but he was as helpless as RObisnson Crusoe, being the lone striker against the towering Spurs defensive wall. And Giggs and Scholes were useless as well, not being the usual suspects to lead the attack.

But out of nothing, Nani did wat his price tag would justified his talent and scored an absolute screamer. Out of nothing. I would say Nani would not deserve his MOTM award at all. Cuz he was absolutely rubbish. I would say the man who shld deserve it was Chris Eagles... Cuz he added an extra dimension to the attack. His tireless runs tired the two Spurs centre backs Ricardo Rocha and Anthony Gardner.

But I would say football is bad for your health. Cuz when your team plays well, they just could not win. But when your team plays as rubbish as a novice player, they won out of nothing. So, Devils, please continue your rubbish throughout the season so that we will win the "Most Rubbish Team ever but yet won the title out of nothing" award. And we do miss Ron and Roon.

Jelly Head...

I'm so tired today that i overslept for so long.. woke up at 11 today.. Tired! Tired! Tired!
Gotta do housework now..

Redemption

Today, my head feels like jelly... maybe its due to lack of sleep these few days and my working schedule is like depriving me of my sleep...

Its Jokes Time!

There are three guys named Do,Re and Mi. They have been living together for years. One day, while on the way home, Do passed by a hill which happens to be the Magical Hill. Do saw a sign which says, "SHout out your greatest need in life and it will GRANT you". Since Do wants to be rich, Do shouts,"MONEY!!" and money falls down from the sky.

Doe tells Re about the miracle that befall him. Re then went to the hill himself. Since Re is a womanizer, Re shouts "Women!!" and thousands of beautiful women, even more beautiful than those at the ORchard Towers fell down from the sky.

Re being the selfish one, vandalised the signboard and told Mi at home that he needs to whisper to the tree on the hill to get their desire. Mi, being the most stupidest one, followed Re's order and procedes to the hill. Since he was crazy about Mars Bars, he went to whispered to the tree. No reaction followed. He whispered again. No reaction. Losing patience, Mi walks away. WHile walking away, he stumbled upon a pebble. Being angry, Mi shouted "Arsehole!!!". Saying that, Mi is bludgeoned by thousands of falling asses from the sky...

Currently listening to: Redemption by Shadows Fall

For the Love of God

I did not have the most memorable days at home today... Guess I was so tired that after breakfast i went str8 to bed. Maybe due to the late night chatting with CT yesterday.....

Btw, working closing today. The power closers were nt around therefore we did not finish as fast as usual.

The past few days have been very down for me. One is due to Man Utd not winning(again!) and of cuz i had a dream last sunday that disturbs me most of the time.

It started with me and the rest of 7Inches jamming under the block. Suddenly out of the blue, i saw 2 distant figures away. One was a tanned man and another was a long haired lady, wearing a ponytail but with a big belly, i guessed she was pregnant. But when the figures come closer towards me, i figured that the pregnant lady was my ex and the man was a distant cousin. Then i called them up. The lady, which happened to be my ex told that she is carrying her baby and is getting married soon. I was shocked. Fair enough it might not shock u but there were certain things that really stunned me till now i still cant figure out the purpose of the dream.

Main points:
- This was my ex back in 2003. We first met while i was sheltering her down her block in sembawang and at that time, we happened to see a pregnant woman.

- The song that we jammed in the dream was the very last song that i penned with 7Inches. It was called BlackRose Thorns, which is meant to condemn her

- I have not thought or seen my ex for the last 6 mths. Hw come she suddenly pop in my dream out of the blue? Curious.

- The bus that she went out was SMRT Service 169. It was also the first bus where we always go home on after sch. In fact, it was the bus that stops in front of my house!!

K then. Enough of the dream. Blackrose and thorns will be the main single if we managed to break through the music scene.

Currently listening to: For the Love of God by STeve Vai ( one of my fave Vai solos is in this songs)

Cause we've ended as lovers

Just came back from work. Wat a tiring day it was... Our Chong closer(Puga) went on MC again, so i and another closer have to share the closing task we had to do...

As usual, i was feeling like a man who had just lose his wife or girlfriend. Maybe it is due to hurtful comments against the Devils poor form of the season. I kept hiding my disappointment and telling my workmates that if the Devils beat Spurs next weekend, they will go on to a 23-match winning streak.( And if United did that, if God had read this, i will go donate 50 bucks to the nearest mosque.) As usual i had my thoughts too. What if they failed to win again?? Does this means relegation for the Devils after 32 years on the top flight?? The Devils' squad has too good quality to get relegated. But then, nothing is impossible.

And for the moment, I will not try to add shoutboxes or change the designs of this blog, cuz it is just a moment of my thoughts waiting to get out of this robotic brain of mine.

Currently working on a song im writing. Hope 7 Inches will get back soon so that we can compose new songs, jam and maybe gig again.

Currently listening: Cause We've ENded Up as Lovers by Jeff Beck( good song to listen to nurse a broken heart)

Hangover.

So frustrated about United's defeat yesterday, i tore down all the posters from the wall and also kept my jerseys into a bag under the bed. I will continue doing this till United win the 2nd game of the season.

Woke up late this morning due to me sleeping late yesterday. Wrote lyrics for two of the new tunes that i have kept in my hp since two months ago. Maybe if i have the time, i post it here, but afraid that some idiots might steal the lyrics and make it into "Lolly's" song. SO not to be afraid.... i think i will post it down here, without the tunes...

Working at five today. Slacking afternoon!!

start of something terrific

woot... hiya u all.....

just wanna say hw a bad august for me as a devils fan watching ur beloved devils crumbled even they had played well... reason: they cant score.

well, i had every reason to spot on y they cant score. teams had knew they tactice beforehand, therefore they know hw to contain united's free flowing attack and score from their defensive frailities. But i boldly predict united to win the treble. Y? Look at 1999 and see the records.

1998/1999 season
United W0 D3 L0

2007/2008 season
United W0 D2 L1

answer to win games: buy another established striker, someone like nikola zigic or klass jan huntelaar will do.

nwadays, my life had been in the downside too, since i had my chicken pox back in june. Just got my PES B back last week and nw still slacking. Havent been meeting new people nwadays, maybe due to my yearning to see the devils winning again.

was surfing wanderlessly in friendster just nw. didnt find much new ppl there either. maybe its because most ppl are getting so fake, they even faked their own ages there. Grow up girls and boys, its time to get spanked and induced by memory healing water.

just wondering, y most ppl hate unreqruited love... if it was me, i would open my arms wide open.

curently listening to: Godzilla(Fu Manchu)