Nothing much at the moment except for a note to be noted of:-
Sal's a boring guy who never fails to bore his ass out of his life again.
Sal's statistics:
Height: 169 cm
Weight: 68.5kg
Loves: Manchester United FC, Family, Friends and $$
Love life: Non-existent
Works as: Mac Crew but nonsensical one
Where you can spot Sal: Go call his handphone number and he will meet you right on your doorstep
Why Sal is boring: Because he is an ass-h0le..
Tuesday, October 30, 2007
Sunday, October 28, 2007
16 Syawal
Ladies and Gentlemen..... May I present to you, the performance of the Red Devils when in hot sizzling form...
Today United won again, this time another 4-1 scoreline to down Boro, means they have scored 4 in 4 consecutive games andhave won their 8th straight match in all competitions. The game started with an absolute screamer from Nani in the 3rd minute but the defence went to sleep 2 minutes later to allow Boro to come back. But the rest are just a delightful performance by Wayne Rooney, who played the part in the rest of the 3 goals, scoring one and creating two, to his striking partner, Tevez.
Earlier today, went raya-ing again. This time, I swear it is the last time I would go out for Raya. I agreed to follow my poly mates for raya-ing after Jackie cannot confirm our meeting to go out and also I was feeling dead bored at home. Furthermore, my Raya spirit had already died down in the first week. Therefore, I would like to thank all the 8 people whom I joined for Raya with, especially Nutt, who gladly prepared for us Nasi Ayam Penyet(It was very delicious and very filling though, that I can't seem to eat anymore for the rest of the day.) Also to all the hosts who gladly welcomed us to be in the Raya spirit. Went home at 7 today cuz I was feeling very exhausted by the time we reached Nutt's house.
Didn't know Nutt's house was nearby the site where the Elephant tree and the Monkey tree is situated. When I reach there, it look like a fun fair, with a stall selling the merchandises of the two famed trees and also jossticks to offer prayers. Now that's what I call good publicity to brighten up your neighbourhood. Guys, I just see a carving of Lady Whitesnake on the tree in Woodlands!!
Today United won again, this time another 4-1 scoreline to down Boro, means they have scored 4 in 4 consecutive games andhave won their 8th straight match in all competitions. The game started with an absolute screamer from Nani in the 3rd minute but the defence went to sleep 2 minutes later to allow Boro to come back. But the rest are just a delightful performance by Wayne Rooney, who played the part in the rest of the 3 goals, scoring one and creating two, to his striking partner, Tevez.
Earlier today, went raya-ing again. This time, I swear it is the last time I would go out for Raya. I agreed to follow my poly mates for raya-ing after Jackie cannot confirm our meeting to go out and also I was feeling dead bored at home. Furthermore, my Raya spirit had already died down in the first week. Therefore, I would like to thank all the 8 people whom I joined for Raya with, especially Nutt, who gladly prepared for us Nasi Ayam Penyet(It was very delicious and very filling though, that I can't seem to eat anymore for the rest of the day.) Also to all the hosts who gladly welcomed us to be in the Raya spirit. Went home at 7 today cuz I was feeling very exhausted by the time we reached Nutt's house.
Didn't know Nutt's house was nearby the site where the Elephant tree and the Monkey tree is situated. When I reach there, it look like a fun fair, with a stall selling the merchandises of the two famed trees and also jossticks to offer prayers. Now that's what I call good publicity to brighten up your neighbourhood. Guys, I just see a carving of Lady Whitesnake on the tree in Woodlands!!
Saturday, October 27, 2007
15 Syawal
On Monday, I went down to City Hall. Tot I wanted to eat Komala Villas' to get a craving of masala dosai. Ended up with that and a new Manchester United Black Away Jersey.
Wanted to print Vidic's name on the back. But i went to every shop around there and dear me, all the Vidics prints aresold out at the 3 main shops. Since Im used to buy and bargain at La Vanita, decided to print Anderson's number instead(since there are rarely Anderson prints in the public). Die die wanted Vidic's print initially till i requested the guy to re-check his stock again. Tot wanted to go back another day to get Vidic's print but it takes another month for another set of numbers to come. Shit. So i didnt fulfil my promise yet. Must print my Manchester United white Alternate jersey with Vidic's name next.
Before reaching Peninsula, I had to meet this passerby in life. A Chinese Uncle, around 1.5++ m tall, wearing a flowery beige shirt and jeans, maybe around 50+ came to me with a 50 cent coin.
Uncle: Where to walk towards Ang Mo Kio?? How long can I reach??
Me: Ouh, thats quite far....
My brain: Yes, u can walk towards the Little India direction but it takes you 3 days to walk. Are you game for it??
Uncle: I only got 50 cents here. My car broke down..
Me: Ouh,thats a pity....
My brain: You go out never bring wallet, never bring ATM, never even bring anymore cash. You must be a beggar....
Uncle: So can I walk there...
Me: Never mind then. I give you 2 dollars. Go and take the train to Ang Mo Kio..
My brain: Pathetic fucker. Here's 2 dollars to fuck off my sight.
Uncle: Then how to makan?? later dun have $$ to eat...
Me: Never mind. I have spare cash...
My brain: Kanina!! people offer you money dun want to take.... Fuck off my sight!!!
And the conversation ends there. My brain shows how idiotic the conversation is. The next few minutes, I found out this pathetic uncle who doesnt know where Ang Mo kio is, is in fact driving a Jaguar. Rich bastard!!!
Wanted to print Vidic's name on the back. But i went to every shop around there and dear me, all the Vidics prints aresold out at the 3 main shops. Since Im used to buy and bargain at La Vanita, decided to print Anderson's number instead(since there are rarely Anderson prints in the public). Die die wanted Vidic's print initially till i requested the guy to re-check his stock again. Tot wanted to go back another day to get Vidic's print but it takes another month for another set of numbers to come. Shit. So i didnt fulfil my promise yet. Must print my Manchester United white Alternate jersey with Vidic's name next.
Before reaching Peninsula, I had to meet this passerby in life. A Chinese Uncle, around 1.5++ m tall, wearing a flowery beige shirt and jeans, maybe around 50+ came to me with a 50 cent coin.
Uncle: Where to walk towards Ang Mo Kio?? How long can I reach??
Me: Ouh, thats quite far....
My brain: Yes, u can walk towards the Little India direction but it takes you 3 days to walk. Are you game for it??
Uncle: I only got 50 cents here. My car broke down..
Me: Ouh,thats a pity....
My brain: You go out never bring wallet, never bring ATM, never even bring anymore cash. You must be a beggar....
Uncle: So can I walk there...
Me: Never mind then. I give you 2 dollars. Go and take the train to Ang Mo Kio..
My brain: Pathetic fucker. Here's 2 dollars to fuck off my sight.
Uncle: Then how to makan?? later dun have $$ to eat...
Me: Never mind. I have spare cash...
My brain: Kanina!! people offer you money dun want to take.... Fuck off my sight!!!
And the conversation ends there. My brain shows how idiotic the conversation is. The next few minutes, I found out this pathetic uncle who doesnt know where Ang Mo kio is, is in fact driving a Jaguar. Rich bastard!!!
Thursday, October 25, 2007
13 Syawal
I can't believe that im feeling all stressed up because of nothing. Not work. But nowadays I feel that i have no companions to share my time with especially during my free time.
That's the main reason why I wanted to work everyday. Because I have lots of time in hand. And also I feel like a forgotten man without a friend.
A lot of my friends suggested, since u have lots of time in hand, u better find a girlfriend. Trust me, that is the worst idea I ever come across with. Cuz the stress of having a girlfriend is worst than taking ur O Level Exams. The stress to make her happy. The stress of going out with her. The stress of thinking of spending lots of money on her. If only there such thing as "traditional women" nowadays. Women nowadays are independent. But to me, in this world there is no such thing as independent. Cuz we are interdependent on each other.
My only hope is, hopefully i find a friend who lives nearby, who can hang out with me whenever im free. Cuz life is such a bore nowadays. And it never gets right.
That's the main reason why I wanted to work everyday. Because I have lots of time in hand. And also I feel like a forgotten man without a friend.
A lot of my friends suggested, since u have lots of time in hand, u better find a girlfriend. Trust me, that is the worst idea I ever come across with. Cuz the stress of having a girlfriend is worst than taking ur O Level Exams. The stress to make her happy. The stress of going out with her. The stress of thinking of spending lots of money on her. If only there such thing as "traditional women" nowadays. Women nowadays are independent. But to me, in this world there is no such thing as independent. Cuz we are interdependent on each other.
My only hope is, hopefully i find a friend who lives nearby, who can hang out with me whenever im free. Cuz life is such a bore nowadays. And it never gets right.
Wednesday, October 24, 2007
12 Syawal
These few weeks have been an out of sorts week for me. I suddenly have so much to think about nowadays. ANd some things that are not in my mind have been bugging me too.
These few days, ive been feeling that everyone have been avoiding me, especially those who never replied my msgs. I understand that some of you people are trying to save costs by spending less time on sms-es but it would be a great pleasure for you to at least reply a message giving me a warning sms stating you cant be replying my messages. That way i wouldnt be wasting mine too. Sms-es are precious to me as it would determine me from being either a good jock or a loser. For that, i would extend my heartfelt thanks for one of my friend, ms nuraida for giving me warning msgs everytime ur bill is "bombed". For that, i will take your word and wait patiently till u msg me back.... But right now, i felt that my handphone is in no use cuz its been a week since someone really has a conversation with me on SMS....
Im in a dilemma that could decide my future now. Im in a crossroads of either signing on with SCDF or police. Some of my relatives and friends who used to be in Police NS said that nowadays to sign on with SPF, u have to take your own initiative to sign on. Its no more of the officer spot ur talent and recommend you to sign on. For that, i need to wait after NS to sign on. SCDF also just called me for my 2nd interview, but im in two minds not to go as i m fickle minded.... HMM...
I just got another niece last saturday. She's a month ahead of time, therefore needed to spend an extra mth in KK NICU. Tot missy Yatie could help me look after my niece but unfortunately, she's in another ICU.... Sorry,bi!!!
These few days, ive been feeling that everyone have been avoiding me, especially those who never replied my msgs. I understand that some of you people are trying to save costs by spending less time on sms-es but it would be a great pleasure for you to at least reply a message giving me a warning sms stating you cant be replying my messages. That way i wouldnt be wasting mine too. Sms-es are precious to me as it would determine me from being either a good jock or a loser. For that, i would extend my heartfelt thanks for one of my friend, ms nuraida for giving me warning msgs everytime ur bill is "bombed". For that, i will take your word and wait patiently till u msg me back.... But right now, i felt that my handphone is in no use cuz its been a week since someone really has a conversation with me on SMS....
Im in a dilemma that could decide my future now. Im in a crossroads of either signing on with SCDF or police. Some of my relatives and friends who used to be in Police NS said that nowadays to sign on with SPF, u have to take your own initiative to sign on. Its no more of the officer spot ur talent and recommend you to sign on. For that, i need to wait after NS to sign on. SCDF also just called me for my 2nd interview, but im in two minds not to go as i m fickle minded.... HMM...
I just got another niece last saturday. She's a month ahead of time, therefore needed to spend an extra mth in KK NICU. Tot missy Yatie could help me look after my niece but unfortunately, she's in another ICU.... Sorry,bi!!!
Sunday, October 21, 2007
9 Syawal
This week is known as D-Day for the world of sports, presumably the return of EPL, the F1 season finale that involves 3 racers for the drivers' championship and of course, the highly anticipated Rugby World Cup Final.
EPL was well resumed yesterday with all the Big Four winning their matches fashionably( except for the case for Liverpool, who need two penalties to win their matches, u lucky fags!!).
But what was intriguing is that for United. Thrashing the Villains at their homeground is not something common insight for u today. Villa has been the most improved side today, boasting 6 ENgland U-21 stars and of course their captain Gareth Barry, who has been wonderful for England this season, partnering for Stevie G. But yesterdays match shown the difference between a Champions side and a side that is in transition. Shockingly down 1-0 after 11 minutes, United scored 3 in 10 minutes from two goals from Wazza and another by a deflectedshot fom Rio. Giggsy completed the rout in the second half after Villa finish the match with 9 men. Ronney could have his hat-trick if he converted the spot-kick and a further fourth if his wonderful chip has went into the net instead of the crossbar.
Didnt manage to catch Rugby World Cup Final as i fell asleep during the pre-match commentary. Good thing I rooted for Springboks to win. And they won 15-9.
I didnt know Raya was a hurting experience for some of our Muslim mates. Especially the part waiting for your friends to come to your house. I had a painful expereince last year while organising a house-warming cum Raya gathering last year. While I anticipated 20 friends to come to my house on the third-day of Raya, only 6 came down. The others giving excuses like tired, having work commitments and of course going out with family. As family outings could be excused as i emphasised on visiting family first before visiting friends, you could have put aside work to visit your loved ones at raya. I mean work is important, but Raya is all about meeting your loved ones, mengikatkan tali silaturrahim. This is not Raya spirit. I always took the trouble of taking a week off during the first week of Raya to meet my "once-a-year" relatives. I can't see why others couldnot take off. Cuz u cant get rich just by working. If you want to get rich, join the "Fast-To-Get-Rich" scheme. The scheme, you can try to find it out on the Net.
Others have bad Raya experience too. Let me give you some scenarios:
EPL was well resumed yesterday with all the Big Four winning their matches fashionably( except for the case for Liverpool, who need two penalties to win their matches, u lucky fags!!).
But what was intriguing is that for United. Thrashing the Villains at their homeground is not something common insight for u today. Villa has been the most improved side today, boasting 6 ENgland U-21 stars and of course their captain Gareth Barry, who has been wonderful for England this season, partnering for Stevie G. But yesterdays match shown the difference between a Champions side and a side that is in transition. Shockingly down 1-0 after 11 minutes, United scored 3 in 10 minutes from two goals from Wazza and another by a deflectedshot fom Rio. Giggsy completed the rout in the second half after Villa finish the match with 9 men. Ronney could have his hat-trick if he converted the spot-kick and a further fourth if his wonderful chip has went into the net instead of the crossbar.
Didnt manage to catch Rugby World Cup Final as i fell asleep during the pre-match commentary. Good thing I rooted for Springboks to win. And they won 15-9.
I didnt know Raya was a hurting experience for some of our Muslim mates. Especially the part waiting for your friends to come to your house. I had a painful expereince last year while organising a house-warming cum Raya gathering last year. While I anticipated 20 friends to come to my house on the third-day of Raya, only 6 came down. The others giving excuses like tired, having work commitments and of course going out with family. As family outings could be excused as i emphasised on visiting family first before visiting friends, you could have put aside work to visit your loved ones at raya. I mean work is important, but Raya is all about meeting your loved ones, mengikatkan tali silaturrahim. This is not Raya spirit. I always took the trouble of taking a week off during the first week of Raya to meet my "once-a-year" relatives. I can't see why others couldnot take off. Cuz u cant get rich just by working. If you want to get rich, join the "Fast-To-Get-Rich" scheme. The scheme, you can try to find it out on the Net.
Others have bad Raya experience too. Let me give you some scenarios:
- One particular soul wanted to visit his family in the afternoon. But received the call from his friend to come over his house, he asked his wife to cook. He waited for 5 hours. Afternoon turns to night and still friend didnt come. Angry, he decides to lock his doors and cancelled his outing. Next day, he goes to call friend. Friend's excuse: CHild was sleeping and didnt want to wake him up.
- Another soul wanted to visit his parents in Malaysia. But his cousin called, said he wanted to visit him immediately and asked him to wait. He waits. And wait. And wait. His arrival: 11PM!! Reason: Goes rounding and lastly visit him last as his house was the furthest.
- Another wanted to go out but his uncle called to visit him. But he waited unbelievably.... overnight for the uncle to come. Uncle came tomorrow morning. Reason: they decided to visit their relatives in hospital first. And they just plain forgotten their promise to their nephew.
Saturday, October 20, 2007
8 Syawal
Life is getting worse day by day. Working less times per week. Not doing anything very honouring in the moment. People offending me in MSN and my SMSes every day. Think people has make me the most hated man in technology planet nowadays.
I find girls nowadays getting more demanding, unreasonable and unrealistic nowadays. Many want their partners to have this kind of things, this kind of looks and the most shcoking things is, the traits must be in the same boy.
In the past, i would try to be the kind of guy they wanted. Most of them wanted a listening ear, someone who would be there with. When i tried to be like that, they would eventually leave for another guy and of course, (sorry for looking down on some of you,guys) the guys is nowhere and worse some of them are pathetic abusers, bringing down the reputations of gentlemen.
What i found out that, im nowhere on my X-Factor side. Maybe im just not the type of person that people would show off to the people. Maybe i just dun have enough talents that the girls could show to their parents. Maybe just because i dun have any transportation, people would bypass me, thinking im some kind of parasite that exists in the world.
I admit i am a bad conversationalist. I have the same questions for everyone when it comes to conversations. My conversations always starts like this
ME: Hey, how are you?
You answered
NE: Wat you doing?
You answered
NE:Not going out today
You answered. By the time you answered, you must be thinking how pathetic my life is.
Nowadays, im trying to add life to my conversations. Like some jokes. Or taking interests in your hobbies. Maybe become a 15 minute fan for the PCD may works too. In that way, maybe it may add more colours in life.
Or maybe you can work it out by taking an interests in my life too...
I find girls nowadays getting more demanding, unreasonable and unrealistic nowadays. Many want their partners to have this kind of things, this kind of looks and the most shcoking things is, the traits must be in the same boy.
In the past, i would try to be the kind of guy they wanted. Most of them wanted a listening ear, someone who would be there with. When i tried to be like that, they would eventually leave for another guy and of course, (sorry for looking down on some of you,guys) the guys is nowhere and worse some of them are pathetic abusers, bringing down the reputations of gentlemen.
What i found out that, im nowhere on my X-Factor side. Maybe im just not the type of person that people would show off to the people. Maybe i just dun have enough talents that the girls could show to their parents. Maybe just because i dun have any transportation, people would bypass me, thinking im some kind of parasite that exists in the world.
I admit i am a bad conversationalist. I have the same questions for everyone when it comes to conversations. My conversations always starts like this
ME: Hey, how are you?
You answered
NE: Wat you doing?
You answered
NE:Not going out today
You answered. By the time you answered, you must be thinking how pathetic my life is.
Nowadays, im trying to add life to my conversations. Like some jokes. Or taking interests in your hobbies. Maybe become a 15 minute fan for the PCD may works too. In that way, maybe it may add more colours in life.
Or maybe you can work it out by taking an interests in my life too...
Thursday, October 18, 2007
6 Syawal
These few days i have been lazy and not in a best of mood to update my blog. Guess updating my blog needs a mood too. These few days i have no complaints whatsoever in my life (except to let me have more work and have offdays uring weekends to go out to Raya). Finally, i have paid my phone bills which amounted to a whooping 70 bucks, replaced my pants which suddenly 'shrunk' in size and of course lepaskan nafsu makan after fasting mth. And yes, i've gained 3 kg... which means im nw a whooping and healthy 68 kg.
Btw, one of the reasons of my online abscence is becos..... my bro bought a new PSP. and we have FIFA 2008 inside it. Nowadays FIFA wants to emulate their Konami Rivals for gameplay. Initially, FIFA is only good in graphics, but gameplay wise, it was so easy, that I could thrash Real Madrid by using Olympiakos 13-0. And that by using World Class Difficulty.
But nowadays, FiFA decided to up its gameplay, that by using Rookie, i could lose to Derby County by using United and that really infuriates me. Nowadays, whenever I scored a goal in FiFA, I would shout at the top of my lungs cuz it is really infuriating.
Today marks my first day with the new boss. All I can say the new boss is so strict, I can become a circus act inside the kitchen by exchanging gloves and throwing gloves everywhere.
Time to start losing weight and start playing soccer!! Here I go United!!!
Btw, one of the reasons of my online abscence is becos..... my bro bought a new PSP. and we have FIFA 2008 inside it. Nowadays FIFA wants to emulate their Konami Rivals for gameplay. Initially, FIFA is only good in graphics, but gameplay wise, it was so easy, that I could thrash Real Madrid by using Olympiakos 13-0. And that by using World Class Difficulty.
But nowadays, FiFA decided to up its gameplay, that by using Rookie, i could lose to Derby County by using United and that really infuriates me. Nowadays, whenever I scored a goal in FiFA, I would shout at the top of my lungs cuz it is really infuriating.
Today marks my first day with the new boss. All I can say the new boss is so strict, I can become a circus act inside the kitchen by exchanging gloves and throwing gloves everywhere.
Time to start losing weight and start playing soccer!! Here I go United!!!
Tuesday, October 16, 2007
4 Syawal
Friendster sucks nowadays cuz they just could not upload my raya pics onto my photo pages. But never mind then.. at least the pics are save in my hard drive now.
Currently snoozing at home as mac gave me the day off to recover from raya blues. Im saving my collection now to buy Man Utd new away jersey with Vidic CL print behind. Guess im jealous at some of the guys at ManUtd SG forum collection.
Ok guys, nothing much today. My mind is as clean as a whistle. But someone in my past is trying to msg me now... Hmm.... Lets not reply the msgs, shall we??
Currently snoozing at home as mac gave me the day off to recover from raya blues. Im saving my collection now to buy Man Utd new away jersey with Vidic CL print behind. Guess im jealous at some of the guys at ManUtd SG forum collection.
Ok guys, nothing much today. My mind is as clean as a whistle. But someone in my past is trying to msg me now... Hmm.... Lets not reply the msgs, shall we??
Monday, October 15, 2007
3 syawal (cnt'd)
Let the pics speak for itself!!
(Left) My mum's side
(Right) My Dad's side
(Top) The ones living under the same roof!!
3 Syawal
Sorry for the my 2 days of disappearance cuz i am busy with Raya. Have been visiting my family. So far 12 houses and my collection money has all been good. But the ironic thing is to look at my dad's family.
My dad has a very big family that extends till my grandma and my late granddad's side. The ironic thing is, i only see them once a year, that is hari raya, and so thats y i rarely took an interest in them(except some of them who used to be schmates with me at Ngee Ann Polytechnic).
The most interesting thing about having extended family is they tend to give me 'surprises' every year. One thing is to see that most of them ard my age are either with fiancees or married. I rarely gt invited by them(or is it my parents didnt told me) and suddenly they are married. The best thing is, u will see their kids suddenly grown up! Suddenly there was like a baby boom during the annual meet of the family. I still remember one raya where all of the mums gathered all their kids and posed for the camera. Its ironic that most of the 'kids' in the particular photo are in fact married. And some of them are even younger than my age.
Hmm, talking bout my extended family, makes me feel that i'm all unlucky and out of love. But what to do?? Wait till the right one comes along......
My dad has a very big family that extends till my grandma and my late granddad's side. The ironic thing is, i only see them once a year, that is hari raya, and so thats y i rarely took an interest in them(except some of them who used to be schmates with me at Ngee Ann Polytechnic).
The most interesting thing about having extended family is they tend to give me 'surprises' every year. One thing is to see that most of them ard my age are either with fiancees or married. I rarely gt invited by them(or is it my parents didnt told me) and suddenly they are married. The best thing is, u will see their kids suddenly grown up! Suddenly there was like a baby boom during the annual meet of the family. I still remember one raya where all of the mums gathered all their kids and posed for the camera. Its ironic that most of the 'kids' in the particular photo are in fact married. And some of them are even younger than my age.
Hmm, talking bout my extended family, makes me feel that i'm all unlucky and out of love. But what to do?? Wait till the right one comes along......
Saturday, October 13, 2007
Selamat Hari Raya!!!
I keep this short and sweet:
-To all my Muslim friends, by hook or by crook, I wanna wish you all a happy Hari Raya ahead. I also seek forgiveness to those who i've hurt along the way, may all my distasteful actions are forgiven by u all...
- To my new friends whom i recently have met not long ago, thanks for taking you time to know me. Hope our friendship will be longer and last till the day we return to Allah
- To my old friends, thank you for herishing my life all this while. Just want to say on this early wee hours of Lebaran, "Bila nak sampai rumah gue??"
Once again, i end this entry with Selamat Hari Raya, minal 'aidil wal fa'izin.....
Friday, October 12, 2007
Day 30 - Can i be known as Ma'anani??
Somehow, somewhere this particular name pops out from my mind.Decided to make an imaginary person by the way. I imagined him to be an arab, probably from North Africa. With curly hair, dyed auburn, with big hazel eyes, very romanic nose, a goatee, full lips, hairy and be stocku-build, must be around 1.8 m in height. I would call him by his surname, Ma'anani.
I've been happy on how things have turn out for my partner nowadays. She have started smiling, our conversations have returned to her pre- 'very traumatised'- relationship. She have started to crack jokes and its a miracle she had started smiling barely after 3 months after that 'very traumatised' relationship. But somehow, somewhere, i still know that she is thinking about him cuz i somehow can read her feelings. Somehow i was almost there too, about 4 years ago, before i abolished my ego and decided to leave that 'punani' info confusion. Somehow the punani is now very happily attached to another 'butangkhina' now and im the one into confusion now.But i can feel that her story is much 'very traumatised' then mine. Hmm...
Nowadays im so confused by life and reality now. Somehow, somewhere, i felt that i lose touch from reality. I wanted most things to happen my way, what and how i want it to be. I wanted people to share my views, my thoughts, my base of life. But people are unique and have their own specialities and abilities. I realise i have to rely on fate sometimes cuz Allah the Merciful have decides on them all.
I felt im not being fair to most girls i have dated for the past year. Somehow, i often relate her to my partner. Why she is not so like her like dat... why she is nt so giving like her... why she is not easy going like her... My partner told me, that humans are not the same, They have unique abilities therefore not the same person must be like her. SOmehow i gotta change my view on this, but im just feeling comfortable of looking a a type of lady who is like my partner...
My very beautiful cat looking ex, that 'punani' once told me, "Y u never give others a chance to get love?? Y must u be so greedy to hurt others". I only said.... Love can only be brought to fate and that no one can turn away something that supposed to be happening to you. Someway somehow, that conversation haunts me now, as it now means alot to her. She was the giving one, while i was the very tight and very radical about my own views. Therefore that makes the difference of our situation now. She, the happily ever after life right now, and me, the old slob left on the shelf.
By the way... its 24 hours away from Lebaran. Chores checked. Ayam dah kena sembelih kat AVA tadi... Masjid dah start beli tikar baru.... What seperates me from Lebaran and now is a full shift at Lucky Plaza Mac tml....
To all muslims, especially to that 'p*****', my partner, the girls who i have dated the past year and all my friends of all ages, patik menyusun sepuluh jari, kalaulah tersilap kata dah kecelupahan patik, maka patik memohon maaf di hari yang mulia ini. Selamat Hari Raya, minal 'aidilwal fa'izin......
I've been happy on how things have turn out for my partner nowadays. She have started smiling, our conversations have returned to her pre- 'very traumatised'- relationship. She have started to crack jokes and its a miracle she had started smiling barely after 3 months after that 'very traumatised' relationship. But somehow, somewhere, i still know that she is thinking about him cuz i somehow can read her feelings. Somehow i was almost there too, about 4 years ago, before i abolished my ego and decided to leave that 'punani' info confusion. Somehow the punani is now very happily attached to another 'butangkhina' now and im the one into confusion now.But i can feel that her story is much 'very traumatised' then mine. Hmm...
Nowadays im so confused by life and reality now. Somehow, somewhere, i felt that i lose touch from reality. I wanted most things to happen my way, what and how i want it to be. I wanted people to share my views, my thoughts, my base of life. But people are unique and have their own specialities and abilities. I realise i have to rely on fate sometimes cuz Allah the Merciful have decides on them all.
I felt im not being fair to most girls i have dated for the past year. Somehow, i often relate her to my partner. Why she is not so like her like dat... why she is nt so giving like her... why she is not easy going like her... My partner told me, that humans are not the same, They have unique abilities therefore not the same person must be like her. SOmehow i gotta change my view on this, but im just feeling comfortable of looking a a type of lady who is like my partner...
My very beautiful cat looking ex, that 'punani' once told me, "Y u never give others a chance to get love?? Y must u be so greedy to hurt others". I only said.... Love can only be brought to fate and that no one can turn away something that supposed to be happening to you. Someway somehow, that conversation haunts me now, as it now means alot to her. She was the giving one, while i was the very tight and very radical about my own views. Therefore that makes the difference of our situation now. She, the happily ever after life right now, and me, the old slob left on the shelf.
By the way... its 24 hours away from Lebaran. Chores checked. Ayam dah kena sembelih kat AVA tadi... Masjid dah start beli tikar baru.... What seperates me from Lebaran and now is a full shift at Lucky Plaza Mac tml....
To all muslims, especially to that 'p*****', my partner, the girls who i have dated the past year and all my friends of all ages, patik menyusun sepuluh jari, kalaulah tersilap kata dah kecelupahan patik, maka patik memohon maaf di hari yang mulia ini. Selamat Hari Raya, minal 'aidilwal fa'izin......
Wednesday, October 10, 2007
Day 28
Its 11:07PM.... Wednesday 11th October 2007
As of now, its 3 days to Lebaran and half of the chores are being done.
Since i sleep in the leaving room, around me is bags of curtains still awaiting my mum to iron them up and me hanging them up on the curtain railings.
It has been a yearly routine for me to end the Lebaran preparations every year by hanging the curtains before lighting up the house with lights..
But as for now, im in a total wreck in my brain.
Problem is, I think too much of the future.
What about now, the present??
Are you going to think of somthing that dont even exist now?
Are you thinking about big times ahead??
Are you thinking of being a successful person right ahead even though you are nt doing anything??
Are you thinkng who eventually will be the lady you will share your life with in the future while all this moment you are being rejected and rejected all over again?
Wake up SaL... You are still young.... You have eons of ages left. You have your friends. Your Family. Your so called bosom buddies. You havent even finish National Service yet you still worry of what things are going to happen in the future.
Tell yourself. Tell your mind. Take things step by stem. Stone by stone.
Before that you go down and scold the fucking cheebye bangladeshis to stop crashing their beer bottles around.
Now im getting more pissed.
This blogging treatment is not working properly right now.
Now i go and take a parang and go down to murder the banglas..
Be right back...
(Offline.........)
As of now, its 3 days to Lebaran and half of the chores are being done.
Since i sleep in the leaving room, around me is bags of curtains still awaiting my mum to iron them up and me hanging them up on the curtain railings.
It has been a yearly routine for me to end the Lebaran preparations every year by hanging the curtains before lighting up the house with lights..
But as for now, im in a total wreck in my brain.
Problem is, I think too much of the future.
What about now, the present??
Are you going to think of somthing that dont even exist now?
Are you thinking about big times ahead??
Are you thinking of being a successful person right ahead even though you are nt doing anything??
Are you thinkng who eventually will be the lady you will share your life with in the future while all this moment you are being rejected and rejected all over again?
Wake up SaL... You are still young.... You have eons of ages left. You have your friends. Your Family. Your so called bosom buddies. You havent even finish National Service yet you still worry of what things are going to happen in the future.
Tell yourself. Tell your mind. Take things step by stem. Stone by stone.
Before that you go down and scold the fucking cheebye bangladeshis to stop crashing their beer bottles around.
Now im getting more pissed.
This blogging treatment is not working properly right now.
Now i go and take a parang and go down to murder the banglas..
Be right back...
(Offline.........)
Tuesday, October 9, 2007
Day 27
Another financial bomb was dropped on me today. My handphone bill had reached $70. All because of my 1269 smses send this months. Yeah, i know, my handphone has been very busy lately. One is to layan people who are heartbroken. Another is to plan out the farewell party of 2 of my managers. And im the kind of person who hates calling if there is a method of contact called Short Message Service(or Syndrome if it was meant to me).
Currently high on CM07. Managing Monaco has been all so much fun. WIthin 2 seasons, i have won 7 trophies with the club without any recognised world class player!! Now on my 3rd season and also Portugal had called me to manage them to the next World Cup!!
STill luckless in love?? SO who do I love now??
Currently high on CM07. Managing Monaco has been all so much fun. WIthin 2 seasons, i have won 7 trophies with the club without any recognised world class player!! Now on my 3rd season and also Portugal had called me to manage them to the next World Cup!!
STill luckless in love?? SO who do I love now??
Day 26
Its 4 days away from Hari Raya. The room is still in a mess. Im short of cash and Im lazy to do spring cleaning now. Nonetheless, im still not ready for Hari Raya.
Got 2 days off given by Boss. Guess she must know hw much break we malays need to have as our families are waiting for us to help them decor the whole house during raya. Maybe I will help clean the windows one day and the other day to wash the toilets(which i hate most!). The curtains have been put down and washed and a new set will be awaiting me on the eve of Raya(which im scheduled to work till late!).
To the guys who wanna know whether Im free of cigarettes, the answer is still NO. But im working on cutting down smoking to just 1-2 per week. I've stopped buying cigarettes already and im just waiting for the time when i can just stop lighting up. Maybe i could be an anti-social smoker!
My love life is still slow right now. Im feeling deeply frustrated at meeting new people cuz it just happens all the same.Im feeling like a bad lover right now. Its always after one meet, the girl will keep quiet. next thing i knew she's attached and there goes poor me finding for another true love. If only I knew who my love is.....
Got 2 days off given by Boss. Guess she must know hw much break we malays need to have as our families are waiting for us to help them decor the whole house during raya. Maybe I will help clean the windows one day and the other day to wash the toilets(which i hate most!). The curtains have been put down and washed and a new set will be awaiting me on the eve of Raya(which im scheduled to work till late!).
To the guys who wanna know whether Im free of cigarettes, the answer is still NO. But im working on cutting down smoking to just 1-2 per week. I've stopped buying cigarettes already and im just waiting for the time when i can just stop lighting up. Maybe i could be an anti-social smoker!
My love life is still slow right now. Im feeling deeply frustrated at meeting new people cuz it just happens all the same.Im feeling like a bad lover right now. Its always after one meet, the girl will keep quiet. next thing i knew she's attached and there goes poor me finding for another true love. If only I knew who my love is.....
Saturday, October 6, 2007
day 24
A memorable day for me, preferrably after spending almost 200 dollars on raya clothes at far east plaza. but not to worry as i can still earn it back during Raya and of cuz my bi-weekly pay.
Did bought Everlast shoes (finally!), but couldn't get the colour of my choice as they dont have my size(if u wanna know, im a size 11!). Wanted to play pool after that, but seems that the pool parlour at beauty world had closed down.
United won again this time and fashionaly thrashed Wigan 4-0 at Old Trafford. The game was frustrating at first, with Saha, Vidic,Brown, Carrick,Hargreaves and John O'Shea limping off the game, but the game was to be remembered as a game of fringe players. Pique did his best to imitate the rock of defence Vidic had built, but it was Anderson who impressed the most. He assisted the first goal for Tevez, did his trickery for the last goal to lay off to Simpson for Ronny to score. He also caused a mess for the whole Wigan midfield. And i didnt know he could pass very well and tackle well. If he plays like this everytime he comes on, he would be one of the players that will shine for the future.
So BPL, watch out this name, Anderson Abreu!!!
Did bought Everlast shoes (finally!), but couldn't get the colour of my choice as they dont have my size(if u wanna know, im a size 11!). Wanted to play pool after that, but seems that the pool parlour at beauty world had closed down.
United won again this time and fashionaly thrashed Wigan 4-0 at Old Trafford. The game was frustrating at first, with Saha, Vidic,Brown, Carrick,Hargreaves and John O'Shea limping off the game, but the game was to be remembered as a game of fringe players. Pique did his best to imitate the rock of defence Vidic had built, but it was Anderson who impressed the most. He assisted the first goal for Tevez, did his trickery for the last goal to lay off to Simpson for Ronny to score. He also caused a mess for the whole Wigan midfield. And i didnt know he could pass very well and tackle well. If he plays like this everytime he comes on, he would be one of the players that will shine for the future.
So BPL, watch out this name, Anderson Abreu!!!
Friday, October 5, 2007
Day 23
Finally, after 6 months of emptiness and nothing to look forward to, i will be posted to the Police Academy on Dec 11. Finally!! And I got POLICE LORR!!!
But im currently at loss too, should my interview with SCDF is approved. Then it will make me choose another decision whether to be a full timer faire personnel or to wait for another 2 years and try whether being a cop is better than SCDF.
Currently addicted to anything that has Pomegranate especially Marigolds' Pormogranate Flavoured Soya Drink. I wass so addicted, that i finished 2 cartons in just 2 days... Hmm, talking about drinks, this year's fasting month is the worst i had cuz of the extreme heat and me having gastiris all the way.... I need WATER!!!
But im currently at loss too, should my interview with SCDF is approved. Then it will make me choose another decision whether to be a full timer faire personnel or to wait for another 2 years and try whether being a cop is better than SCDF.
Currently addicted to anything that has Pomegranate especially Marigolds' Pormogranate Flavoured Soya Drink. I wass so addicted, that i finished 2 cartons in just 2 days... Hmm, talking about drinks, this year's fasting month is the worst i had cuz of the extreme heat and me having gastiris all the way.... I need WATER!!!
Wednesday, October 3, 2007
day 22
sorry guys, have not been having enough time to update my blog nowadays due to insufficient time. today im taking an opportunity to 'slam' some of my own people.
as most people know, Ramadhan is one of the holiest month in the muslim calendar. it is also know as the fasting month where muslims all around the world abstained from all daily acts, including eating, drinking,consummate etc and pray during this month.
what im not happy is i saw so many malays (i shall name that muslims here, but most malays in sg are muslims) happily consuming and furthermore smoking happily in the public, with swearing around talking about how to spend hari raya with their loved ones. im not trying to slam anyone here, but if it was me, i shall hide my face with shame if i were to talk about hari raya while consuming food in broad daylight.
As you know, sometimes women are excused from fasting especially those who are going through their menstural period and those who are heavily pregnent. Others include the mentally unstable, the terminally ill and of course, those who had wet dreams. But what i do not understand is that i see many malay men, heavily tattooed, consuming food and smoking and also making nusisance of themselves in public. Furthermore there are girls around therefore i do ,understand the concept of blind love , loving someone who doesnt even deserve anyone's love. The men cannot be excused often from escaping from fasting, unless they masturbate everyday or they just smacked their head on to the wall and lose their sanity temporarily.
I would take this opportunity to advise some of the muslims, especially those who dont even know that fasting is part of the rules of being a muslim, to repent and start doing your job as a fellow muslim.
as most people know, Ramadhan is one of the holiest month in the muslim calendar. it is also know as the fasting month where muslims all around the world abstained from all daily acts, including eating, drinking,consummate etc and pray during this month.
what im not happy is i saw so many malays (i shall name that muslims here, but most malays in sg are muslims) happily consuming and furthermore smoking happily in the public, with swearing around talking about how to spend hari raya with their loved ones. im not trying to slam anyone here, but if it was me, i shall hide my face with shame if i were to talk about hari raya while consuming food in broad daylight.
As you know, sometimes women are excused from fasting especially those who are going through their menstural period and those who are heavily pregnent. Others include the mentally unstable, the terminally ill and of course, those who had wet dreams. But what i do not understand is that i see many malay men, heavily tattooed, consuming food and smoking and also making nusisance of themselves in public. Furthermore there are girls around therefore i do ,understand the concept of blind love , loving someone who doesnt even deserve anyone's love. The men cannot be excused often from escaping from fasting, unless they masturbate everyday or they just smacked their head on to the wall and lose their sanity temporarily.
I would take this opportunity to advise some of the muslims, especially those who dont even know that fasting is part of the rules of being a muslim, to repent and start doing your job as a fellow muslim.
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