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Its been a busy week for me thses past few days. Cant believe its the end of Syawal already. But I still see many people wearing raya clothes, goin ard houses. Maybe gt birthday party kot?

Beginning to loathe to go to work nowadays, since i gave them resignation notice(4 Dec is my last day!!!). Working long hours used to be a favourite for me cuz since im $$ minded but nowadays i just feel the tiredness and the loathing to go to work. But whatever it is, i need to work to pay my bills.

My mood hasn't been well nowadays. I think maybe it is due to work and of cuz, the biggest problem i have nowadays is that im starved of socialisation. But i do go out sometimes, to Woodlands Library. But mostly I went out alone. Sometimes I do get envious looking at teens with big groups laughing around, joking. Especially those groups with gals, can't help missing my school days.

Im now awaiting NS and at the same time thinking about my future and what to do next. Planning for a Plan B soon (if SPF rejected me 3 times) and of cuz, I do need a love life. Im tired of hearing ppl saying, "ouh, your time will come.." But when?? Im waiting for 4 years. 4 fucking years to get back to my love life. When time will come?? Getting impatient you know...

Today while at CWP, saw green guitar girl with her lesbo partner. Fuck sia, I feel so disgusted seeing them. At the same time feel a bit pasrah too cuz how come a pretty girl like her give up so easily in love and become a lesbian. Isnt lesbian love considered love too?? World is getting so upside down. So i do pray for green guitar girl to repent her way. Pray so much that my neighbour, her lesbo partner will cheat her.... (Y am i such a sore loser.....) Hmm....

Need to socialise a while...... Get back some other time....