12 Muharram

As you know guys, i only have sufficient time to post my thoughts once or twice every week as 70% of my life now revolves around HTA. So bear with it cuz as May approaches, I will have more stories to tell you about my NS life.

Its quite mind buggling, yet encouraging to watch ur seniors having their Passing Out Parade. Especially you are the only squad around to watch them. Some may feel full of envy. SOme might cry for them. But to see their faces after the parade and listening to them shouting the magic phrase"POP oh!!!" is really a joy to watch. I almost shed a tear for the seniors. It really encourages me to do well in my IPPT (I still fail pull ups!!!) anddo well in my law studies and also everything else that is offered in the course.

Life in Basic Training is the best time to have in NS life cuz you are often surrounded by friends of different identities. You laugh together. Sleep together. Laugh Together. Play Together. Cry Together. And maybe pass out together. It seems that in HTA, Im having the best times thats occuring in my life. But my life takes for the worst when I left the gates. It seems that my life is so limited to social around, Im still not getting used to life when we have walk out. Hopefully I will do something to improve my social life. Maybe less of online chatting??

5 Muharram 1428H

Sorry guys for not updating my blog for a long time. Thats y I warned you last month, NSFs do not have the time to post all this shit. Btw, its the start of the new year in the Muslim Calendar. So far I have adapted to my NS life. Failed my 2.4km run this week and my book out time has been cut short to half a day. Hell.

I may have adapted to life in camp and 24 hours under the noses of the instructors and enciks, but when I cross over the gates of Home Team Academy, my life suddenly turns to another point of view. Ever since December 11, my social life has totally changed in a snap of my fingers. No more hanging out all day. No more jamming with my band mates. And the story of my band hangs in a balance of my hairline cuz I simple do not have the time and energy to do what I used to do.

Weekend dates have been non-existent. In fact, I think people now lie too much about their status. It hurts when u think you might be looking forward to a fun life outside the gates, but suddenly it all comes crashing down just by the slip of the tongue or ur indecisiveness.

Whatever it is, i just want to have my old life back. Btw, I have started writing music in camp. Hopefully the band will come back soon. Getting envious of the 129th Intake. Their POP's on this Friday. Haiz, 3 more months to POP. But NS life totally rocks!!!

26 Zulhijjah

Back after bookout. Its been almost a month since i entered NS life. End of Prep Course. Still have not passed my IPPT but currently beginning to enjoy barrack life. Especially if u got crazy friends with different antics and also mixing around lots with people around your company.

Haven't been feeling too well cause im down with flu cum throat infection. Have been on LD for 2 days but since Prep Course ended means there isnt much physical training (for now,maybe??)

Im trying to get a life mixed with weekdays staying in HTA. Currently single again, for the moment cause I cant find time for a relationship. But if anyone decided to volunteer herself or someone who decided to know me better, please do approach me and leave me comments. I will MAKE SURE I will come to you more better (ehem!!), with any satisfaction guaranteed!!

I think my squadmates havent know me too well. I know I have a complex character and I may not act my age, but that is just the beginning. People will know me better once I get comfortable with u all,k?? Im just slow at being comfortable with people whom I just met.

Havent been able to compose songs properly. Maybe it is due to tiredness and also the strict rule in barracks. Hmm... maybe I need to apply what i have learnt in HTA to my social life. HURRY UP AHHH!!!!!

13 Zulhijjah

Its another 9 more hours till i returned to my barracks @ HTA. SO much events are happening lately and Im feeling quite shagged over the weekend.

Firstly, I was in TTSH yesterday for more than 4 hours. My gastric problem got worse yesterday and to rub salt into my wounds, I overdosed more than 4 magnesium tablets and suddenly my skin felt that I was bitten by hundred of mosquitos. Was sent to hospital where i was kept under observation. Right now my tummy feels ok as I have burped more than I shit yesterday. But still haveto go on light duty as I have an MC from TTSH.

I would like to take an opportunity to congratulate my cousin, Nur Azilah as she's goin to tie the knot with her fiancee on Christmas Day. Christmas Eve will be a busy day for me as I need to be there to help out for the wedding. Another cousin tie the knot. When is goin to be my turn?

I think it is true that NS life travels so fast. PPl said you close your eyes and open it, suddenly u r nearing POP. Right now I am nearing IPPT. Feeling very nervous as the past 2 days I spent was lying on bed, recovering from the king of gastiris.

Well, there I go. Back to CAMP!!!!

11 Zulhijjah

Thanks to NS, I never felt so shagged in my life. Maybe it is due to my late night jogging during HRH eve and also the PTs in Home Team Academy.

I supposed to meet my bi on HRH eve and today but we often have to cancelled it the last minute. Supposedly NS and having a nurse girlfriend is not a good combination. But I really appreciate her, cuz she is not a very possesive partner and a very giving person. So bi, hope one day we can go out k.... Cuz i damn freaking miss you during bunk nights in HTA!!!

Currently my body feels so light as before. Maybe is due to streneous PT sessions and also on the run whenever in camp. Not really looking forward on Sunday, but for PT and body sake, Im on!! No more freaking LD!!!

Eversince being NSF personnel, my life feels so empty cuz Im being used to work in the morning. Therefore have to change my mindset every now and then.

And a very shocking news. My coy commander is a not-so-distant relative of mine. That makes him a not-so-distant cousin, who is just freaking 20 years old.

10 Zulhijjah

Finally have the time to blog.

Currently out of camp till sunday. NS for the first few weeks was a bit tough since im on Prep course. Means everyday of physical training and it really drains ur mind out if u are not mentally prepared. Furthermore, being assigned as the Squad Leader is a tough job and also u are always being looked up, if not setting a good example with squadmates.

Currently down with stomach flu. My squadmates thought I really "keng" but actually i do have gastiris, except that I dun like to be looked like ayam sakit.

NS really made me meet some new guys. The squad is ethnically diversed in terms of races. Therefore I need to be mentally open-minded to how I talked.

Next week will be my IPPT. Hope I will pass. Aiming to do 9 pull-ups and 2.4 km run of 10 mins plus.

30 Zulkaedah

This is my last entry before I'm off to Home Team Academy for my NS. ThereforeI should keep this short, simple and sweet.

I went to CWP to do last minute shopping for my NS. While having a light dinner at Banquet, saw someone from my past. Actually its not the first time I saw them, but aplenty of times. Its like so hard to continue the normal friendship we had for 4 years ago since you used to be so crazy about her. You also feel so sour when you think you had something in hand but at the last minute, it just flew away. Just like that. I saw her with her current bf. I think they did saw me, but I just didnt care to look or glance, cuz the strong feeling of confusion and feeling sour is still there. Especially you thought of the sweet moments you've had together.

But I have since move on. I met someone else three years ago. And now I dun want to let that chance go again especially when the feeling is so strong that I can blow up a bus(according to my sms to her). Hopefully everything goes well and to Yatie, may u take care of yourself while I'm away.

That's all folks. Told you I want to keep it short. Have a good life ahead and may you be well when I meet you somewhere after the next two weeks!!!

29 Zulkaedah

Its another two days before I disappear for 2 long weeks. Means I need to pack 28 pairs of undergarments into my rucksack and buy all kinds of magazines to kill time during OTOT.

NS might be good for me after all. That's where I will forget my worries, especially of splurging too much on food. Also, the worries of getting boredat home. But I will miss my family and also miss being online, updating this blog. Think I'm beginning to appreciate the people aroundme.

Played football in the rain with the MUSG people. Good players. Bad weather. Bad field. To think I got lost in the park just to find the field, only to be stuck in the heavy rain. Luckily my handphone didnt get damaged by the superb amount of water that hit my phone. What was bad is my tummy. I created a puddle of puke in the middle of a field cuz I didnt ate breakfast. What they didnt know is that Im prone to gastiris.

I think Im beginning to find love now. Actually its not someone new. Its someone I know for the past three years. Someone that I could share my problems with. Someone who is very patient about things. Maybe after all these 4 years, maybe I found the right partner, hopefully in life. Now just waiting for her answer. Only God knows what is in her heart. I leave this all to Fate.

27 Zulkaedah

I tot after quitting Mac, I have all the time to do my own stuffs of resting at home. Instead, the past 3 days have been going back to town to and fro. And the rain didnt help either. Rain has been drenching the lands of Singapore for the past 36 hours. Luckily, it helps me saving electricity at home too. No need to on fan. No need to buy cold drinks. But I do need long sleeved shirts to sleep.

Its another 4 more days till I go to HTA. How time flies. Just 6 months ago, a bout of chicken pox spread in my family, hitting me 2 days before my enlistment date. Hit me real bad, as I was looking forward to life in Tekong. Luckily, God gave me my wish on why I didnt get SPF. God gave me the chance to know more people around my place. God gave me the teeny-weeny chance for me to love again. God gave me the chance to meet new ppl. God gave me chance to write more nicer songs.

Went back to Mac for one last time this afternoon. Did see a few of my friends there but for a brief while. My managers all asking me whether I wanted to return back to Mac. I gave them the probable answer and said maybe if I dun wanna study or find another job.

Im currently in process of writing a new song. One will be titled "Invincible", a song about ego and rejection. Another will be titled "Sleepless in Orchard", a song about our heartland teenagers and youngsters.

25 Zulkaedah

It might be sad that after 4 years, to be leaving the job that changes you internally and having lots of life exp with you, comes to the end of the road. But starting from today, there might be lights ahead, welcoming u with open hands. Welcome to the world. Leave all the memories behind and let the new-lings begin.

Yesterday was the last day of my service at Mac. All the aunties were taking so much about my departure, how they could not cope with PC(Product Caller station, which was my fave spot cuz i can sing and ogle at pretty customers there), and how lame the kitchen will be without my prescence. Brought my digicam to work also, in case to catch on with memories of friends but unluckily due to shifts and also customers streaming in, I didnt manage to take lots of pictures with impt ppl.

It is also ironic that my last shift coincides with my Boss shift. Boss just came back from a long MIA and to hear the stories of my last day almost prompted her to pour the orange juice mix onto me. HAHAHA... luckily wat i said is my last day.

By the way the pictures are in my friendster. SHould take more when I come back for one last time to return my belongings to Mac. Maybe for the last time, maybe not....

23 Zulkaedah

Sorry for the hiatus fans. I finally had the energy and time to go online now after 5 days of working, frustration and of cuz, massive headaches.

Firstly, I would like to point out that Dec 4 would be my final day of service in McDonalds. Although I didnt get promoted during the 4 years, but I think I did so much here. Here at Tanglin Mall, there are so many good crews that we hardly get promoted. Well, I think I'm goin to miss great times with friends and managers alike. I will miss all the disturbing of my BMs (Back-sink Managers), the noise and the fast talkers of the Indian Crews. Not forgetting some of the close friendships of certain friends I would like to highlight to (Jackie, Aisyah, Basith,Aidah, The MCRWs). The managers I work with. The aunties (especially the auntie who always buy me Nasi Lemak if I work AM shift. And to the rest that I met during my 4 years, I just wanna say a big THANK YOU for colouring my life all these while.

Back to McD again, to think that 2 years ago I was conteplating to quit because I couldnt get along with my former boss. She is well liked by some of my closest friends, but I cant work with someone always reprimanding me and throwing tantrums with me whenever she feels like. Luckily, i just be patient and because a certain close manager whom I confidedwith, I manage to stay on till tomorrow.

And becauseof McD, I met a new friend. Remember the girl I talked about all this while?? Yes, she may be reading my entries all thesewhile. And to think I blurted to her who is the "Kid" all these while. I know she may not be a kid, she's all grown up. But then she might have lots of things to learn in the future, especially when she reaches about my age. I used 2 play around when I was 17, dating non stop with different girls, but yet still not attached. But it was at 17, I learn the pain of being cheated by a girl I used to love. It hurt so much that I couldnt forget, even forgive her for 2 years. Now she's all grown up at 19, happily attached to a mat motor, I just cant understand why Im still all alone for the past 4 years.

Back to my McD friend, yes, crushes might be fun, but dunt generaliseall guys as same andwill cheat you. This applies to all girls too. Guys might be egoistical, but some has a heart of gold. I dun say I have a heart of gold, but then I never had the chance to give someone my heart. So, to this friend, I know I may not be right one and I would never force anyone to be with me. But do think about yourself and ur future. May the force bewith you.

I end this post with a heavy heart of leaving Mac. I may or may not be back. The tears and sweat I work for all these years may not be equal to how much money I earn there, but the life experienced is truly learn. 'M' is for Manchester United. 'M' is also for McDonalds. Both are red. Both are filled with passion. May the forcebe with both.

19 ZUlkaedah

SPF rejected my application today with a letter, stating that i am unsuccessful in my application. Its quite a setback for me, cuz initially i taught that with a diploma, i would easily get into the 2nd interview. But my thoughts aint right cuz I would think they would choose someone who is goin on in NS and also those people who have already ORD. So never mind, Im goin to try again and again when I'm still a government conscript.

People at TGM have already expressed the loss of me when I'm leaving next Tuesday onwards. So many friends have already strating to congratulate me and of course stating the loss of my presence in the kitchen and my joyful mood during work. I feel really sad leaving Mac after 4 years. Eventhough I stayed as Crew all these years, I think i learn quite a number of things, enough to be a Manager. I just love the working environment in Mac cuz Mac is a team based working environment. Means when colleagues are down, u come and make them happy. Also, Im beginning to miss many of the crew. The younglings in the weekends, the aunties in the morning, the funny Indian Crews at night and also the managers (esp the bosses i work with). All have different work attitude but the end of the day, we feel like we are one big family.

Im now starting to take things easy. Im currently going crazy and madly with a kid. She may be a young, innocent girl, but one can know how the feel of love at first sight. Im just waiting for the leading moments as soon as possible, but patiently. Cuz building a relationship out of nowhere needs careful decisions to make the love go strong. Till marriage. Till forever. Most people would give up their relationship at one setback, but a good relationship builds on trust, passion, chemistry and most importantly, to appreciate what each other are doin. Even though your friends might laugh at you for choosing a kid to be ur girlfriend, but in the end you will have the last laugh when she grows up to be a mature and understanding women.

Time to sleep. 4 more working days till I leave McDonalds. Bye bye Tanglin Mall. Bye bye colleagues. Hello HTA!!!

18 Zulkaedah

I swear its goin to be a very emotional NS for me for the next two weeks. Right now, I'm feeling visibily frustrated with everything that goes into my life and I just dunno who should I talk to. I feel that my life only exists in myself and that I am not important or significant to others. Even my closest friend do not know me by heart. Some people even go for the extra mile; taking me for granted.

Im living in a world where i always make people happy by partly solving their problems, be a listening ear. When most of my friends are down, I'm the person to cheer them up, doin everything to uppened their morale. But when they are happy or being granted their wish, they just left me behind all alone waiting for another helpless soul to tumble down the stairs and let me aid them.

I just dun get it. Why I keep making people happy when Im unsatisfied with my own life. EVery single decision I have done ends up in frustration. Frustrations after another. Envying other person's life one by one being happy. Why is life so unfair to me?? Tell me, what should I do to have all my wishes granted?? What should I do??

17 Zulkaedah

Its exactly 2 weeks before I start being a boy-turned-man. I will be starting my NS-hood soon and there seems to be so many things I haven't done before the dreaded day. Many of my work colleagues at Mac have started to ask about when I'm leaving cuz most of them might miss my prescence (and maybe my annoyance?). Also, I fear of not having the free time to spend with my love ones often as i will only be around on weekends. I will miss having the freedom at home whereelse at HTA you will only sit inside ur bunks when u are not doin any training. I will miss chatting where in HTA, there is no wireless network to contact. Mostly, I will miss socialising, where in HTA, u only socialise with ur bunk mates.

Finally after a week full of frustration, found the girl I was looking for. Somehow, I found her profile in one of my Mac friends. There she is and surprisingly she lives in Woodlands too. SHouldnt give too much details about her. All i can give is that.
- She is 17.
- She is working in one of Mac outlets in WOodlands.
- She probably lives around Marsiling area.
- She loves to wear contact lenses.
- She just finish her O Levels.
- She just went through a makeover.

Its a miracle that a makeover can change someone looks but never a personality. SHould do that one day to one of my sisters.

16 Zulkaedah

I'm just feeling bloody frustrated nowadays and it doesnt helps the cause when United suddenly lose to a bottom three team like Bolton. Bolton who were playing their strongest team, frustrated United, without four of their superstars, to a goal to nil. Capitalised in the 14th minute due to a Gerard Pique mistake. United never really got into the game, until Anderson came on in the 62nd minute. But its too late, although Tevez had the best and most agonising chance to level the scores, United fell to their 2nd league defeat. Worse comes to worse, their nearest challengers all won their games tonite and this puts United in the tightest spot.

I still cant get over that agonising Wednesday. If you see my previous three entries, it is about the same person. That same girl. That cute face and decent smile that touched my heart. And I cant help losing the chance to know that person(although I think Carlos Tevez must be feeling more frustrated than me). Im also beginning to hallucinate her image when I am alone. This isnt the feeling of loving someone. This is the feeling of infatuation. The feeling when you felt you could get something on but in the end, you just gave it a miss just because you think she isnt the right one.

I also cant help it buy feeling a big sense of envy towards some of their friends. Eversince raya passed, some of my friends are beginning to find love. Lets call it Love After Syawal, when you find love after going visiting with your friends. Somehow, you fell in love at the first sight with your friend's brother, sister, cousin, uncle. WHoever it is. I think some people are just plain lucky to find a suitable partner at the right place and probably at the right time. I just cant find the luck and the love at a moment. Although that Wednesday moment had struck my nerves in my heart, but still I need a lot of guts to catch up. Hopefully I get to meet this soul somewhere over the next few days. Or weeks. Or months. Or years???

15 Zulkaedah

Posted on Thursday, November 22,2007:

Highlight of the day was a girl who caught my eye. Wore the same red t-shirt and saw her during the practise cheer. Dunno which store she was from (suspected it was Woodlands Civic Centre?? or Woodlands Point??), but during my samba beat break with Jackie, she stared at me long (suspected she thinks im a mad guy whose sitting like an ah-pek hitting the floor with a plastic clapper). Managed to see her around the show (which continued the eye-contact) until the time when she just stand beside me, to walk past me..... Weird, but her beauty and cuteness just caught my eye. Didnt managed to catch her after the show and the bird flew away from my hands..

Im just feeling so sour that I didnt get the chance to know this girl because right after the Crew Rally, she's been apperaing in my dream. And every time I woke up, I just feel this very "sore loser" thing that makes me feel so desperate to find this particular lady. Even everytime I passed by a McD around Woodlands,Sembawang,Yishun,CCK, BP, Bukit Timah and Orchard area, I will always look around to see whether this particular lady is around. Dunno whether the feeling is call missing someone or love, but definitely the feeling is still young. Just wanna clear such feelings in my mind as I definitely have other things to do.

Tml day off..... Still wondering and pondering wat to do....

14 Zulkaedah

"Using initiative will bring you success, wthout initiatives, you'll have a stubling block"

Yesterday was my youngest sis's PSLE results. Alhamdulillah she got what she wanted. Although the aggregate of 191 is a low lying scoreline for Express stream, she is still happy with her results and so we are because we knew that she struggled so hard during her final primary school year. But what she didnt get is the good schools in woodlands. There are currently about 8 seconday schools in Woodlands. But where she can go for Express Stream are only 3 schools, mainly Christchurch Sec, Fuchun Sec and Siling Sec. I advised her to put Woodgrove and Woodlands Sec on the first two, even though their minimum aggregate is like a few marks above hers because sometimes you might never know there are a few vacancies left.

Was happy that England was eliminated(Eventhough the first page showed me wearing an ENgland kit). I felt that most of the England players are a bunch of ego-maniacs. Yesterday they played WITHOUT a single Manchester United players and they stupidly put the best midfield partnership of Carrick and Hargreaves on the bench. Even the commentators agreed to my thoughts."Hargreaves is the best player in the country right now and Carrick, his partner at Manchester United, is also as good as him,". They also left out Ashley Cole for the erratic and unfit Wayne Bridge. Played Crouch alone when they have Jermain Defoe and Darrent Bent on bench. And you cannot fucking leave Beckham on the bench when he's available. Eventhough he is 40, you must play him as he is one of the best crossers and set piece-takers in England. He is the only guy who can turn the game around when they are down. And they also left some of the best young players in England out. The likes of Gabriel Agbonlahor,Joe Hart, Micheal Johnson, Matthew Taylor, Steven Taylor, Ashley Young. Why England never gave chance to these young and hopeful players for the future?? They are a big bunch of egos and the trio or Gerrard, Lampard and Gareth Barry shouldn't be given a chance to represent England anymore. Coz they brought about England's downfall......

12 Zulkaedah

Quote from Sunday, November 18 2007:

There is this one particular girl from my friendster who left me a msg, stating that she is someone from my past. Im currently finding all my former pri sch mates (may it from Jin Tai or Qihua) so that we can keep in contact. So whoever this girl whose nick in friendster is Qusyairie Quraisyah, please do add me up in my msn or friendster. Btw, u can leave me a shoutout on my shoutbox. (I do really think that u were from my kindergarten class but dun wanna confirm, just guessing). Please do keep contact K??

The person is none other than Hanis, my former primary school mate. Actually not that close to her, but its a miracle she totally slipped out of my mind cuz usually I recognise the person by face.

Tomorrow's highlight is my younger sister's PSLE result. Hopefully she gets what she had wanted. Have to save my stash to treat her if everything goes well...

Sorry for the bold lettering entry. The laptop's is sounding like a constipated air-con now...

11 Zulkaedah

Finally got thetime to update my bloody blog that has been in hiatus for a week. The week has been one of the most eventful moments for this year.

Today was Crew Rally Day for McD which means McD in the whole of SG come down together gather to meet one another to bond together and also to enjoy the day together which is full of activities. This year it was held at Jurong East Sports Complex. A wrong move by my boss ( who put me into Cheerleading, which i definitely sucked), means I need to get there by 9 am. Worse comes to worse, i went out a lil early and ended up there at 8.35 am(Chinese Garden Station). The station was empty but i can see some red shirts( which is supposed my profit centre supposed to wear) roaming around the station, probably waiting for their colleagues to come down.

The crowd finally come ard at 9am but Boss still hasnt arrive yet. So the red shirts had filled the whole Chinese Garden MRT station and wat it looks like a riot march begin to move towards to J.E Stadium where we started our practise cheer(wasn't really keen on cheering, there4 i took the clappers and hit the floor and with my whistle stated to do samba beats which irritated some aunties in other coloured shirts.

Boss finally came at ard 10.30am with the other 3 crews who followed her all the way from Chinese Garden Stn. Had lunch first(not nice cuz the vege just cant find its way thru my gullet), before going into the sports hall for the big show.

Overall, the show put up by McD was fantastic but applause to the MC who really cracked me with his multilingual jokes and some RA jokes. Get to know a few ppl though from other stores. Meet up with friends whose stores I attached to before(Friends yes, chio bu's nope). During the last few hours i was getting really tired and dozing off when the MC ask us to do the YMCA which really woke me up and ended up in catterpillar which I ran around the hall like a mad dog and endedup slipping onto a cotton candy.

Highlight of the day was a girl who caught my eye. Wore the same red t-shirt and saw her during the practise cheer. Dunno which store she was from (suspected it was Woodlands Civic Centre?? or Woodlands Point??), but during my samba beat break with Jackie, she stared at me long (suspected she thinks im a mad guy whose sitting like an ah-pek hitting the floor with a plastic clapper). Managed to see her around the show (which continued the eye-contact) until the time when she just stand beside me, to walk past me..... Weird, but her beauty and cuteness just caught my eye. Didnt managed to catch her after the show and the bird flew away from my hands..

Meet Aisyah, our former crew at Swensens'. Manager sak already(actually she was an asst manager at McD before). She was like stunned to see me and Jackie, but of course we caught with old times with her, asking how's life and all. Still the same small, petite girl minus the wavy hairdo but nowadays still working around F&B outlets. Best thing the bike is getting bigger than her. Haha.... Harap dapat sign on TP, nnt aku bukak motor lagi besar dari kau!!! (Doakan laa boleh?)

Highlight for this week is spending 100 in one day.... Pay my hp bill plus a new 2GB SanDisk M2 card.... Woohoo!!

8 Zulkaedah

A tiring and long day at work, due to Mother Nature's fault for providing us zero visibility in the north and preventing the Malaysian crews from coming early to work. It also mean another overtime pay for me. But too much overtime can make me a very soft and broken boy.

Also, today I was planning to go and find the duck rice stall which I always frequent whenever I was free after school. Guess it was Mother Nature's fault again and also passing thru Lil India on a sunday can be quite painful in ur nostrils and also the buses from there are always ful.

I've always wanted to reform 7 Inches back asap as I miss writing the songs and jamming with the funny guys. Somehow, nowadays some of them are MIA and with that I want to show how I can mix NS life with social life. And also family life. EHEM!!

I'm always woken up with this particular dream about a blurred faced girl crying while pulling my hands asking me not to let go. Not once I dreamt of it, but this particular scenario often appears when I wanted to wake up from sleep. It often end up in a cuddle and a kiss on the forehead(which of cuz, i did it) and suddenly there is Mum waking me up from my sleep, suruh solat subuh.

There is this one particular girl from my friendster who left me a msg, stating that she is someone from my past. Im currently finding all my former pri sch mates (may it from Jin Tai or Qihua) so that we can keep in contact. So whoever this girl whose nick in friendster is Qusyairie Quraisyah, please do add me up in my msn or friendster. Btw, u can leave me a shoutout on my shoutbox. (I do really think that u were from my kindergarten class but dun wanna confirm, just guessing). Please do keep contact K??