12 Muharram

As you know guys, i only have sufficient time to post my thoughts once or twice every week as 70% of my life now revolves around HTA. So bear with it cuz as May approaches, I will have more stories to tell you about my NS life.

Its quite mind buggling, yet encouraging to watch ur seniors having their Passing Out Parade. Especially you are the only squad around to watch them. Some may feel full of envy. SOme might cry for them. But to see their faces after the parade and listening to them shouting the magic phrase"POP oh!!!" is really a joy to watch. I almost shed a tear for the seniors. It really encourages me to do well in my IPPT (I still fail pull ups!!!) anddo well in my law studies and also everything else that is offered in the course.

Life in Basic Training is the best time to have in NS life cuz you are often surrounded by friends of different identities. You laugh together. Sleep together. Laugh Together. Play Together. Cry Together. And maybe pass out together. It seems that in HTA, Im having the best times thats occuring in my life. But my life takes for the worst when I left the gates. It seems that my life is so limited to social around, Im still not getting used to life when we have walk out. Hopefully I will do something to improve my social life. Maybe less of online chatting??

5 Muharram 1428H

Sorry guys for not updating my blog for a long time. Thats y I warned you last month, NSFs do not have the time to post all this shit. Btw, its the start of the new year in the Muslim Calendar. So far I have adapted to my NS life. Failed my 2.4km run this week and my book out time has been cut short to half a day. Hell.

I may have adapted to life in camp and 24 hours under the noses of the instructors and enciks, but when I cross over the gates of Home Team Academy, my life suddenly turns to another point of view. Ever since December 11, my social life has totally changed in a snap of my fingers. No more hanging out all day. No more jamming with my band mates. And the story of my band hangs in a balance of my hairline cuz I simple do not have the time and energy to do what I used to do.

Weekend dates have been non-existent. In fact, I think people now lie too much about their status. It hurts when u think you might be looking forward to a fun life outside the gates, but suddenly it all comes crashing down just by the slip of the tongue or ur indecisiveness.

Whatever it is, i just want to have my old life back. Btw, I have started writing music in camp. Hopefully the band will come back soon. Getting envious of the 129th Intake. Their POP's on this Friday. Haiz, 3 more months to POP. But NS life totally rocks!!!

26 Zulhijjah

Back after bookout. Its been almost a month since i entered NS life. End of Prep Course. Still have not passed my IPPT but currently beginning to enjoy barrack life. Especially if u got crazy friends with different antics and also mixing around lots with people around your company.

Haven't been feeling too well cause im down with flu cum throat infection. Have been on LD for 2 days but since Prep Course ended means there isnt much physical training (for now,maybe??)

Im trying to get a life mixed with weekdays staying in HTA. Currently single again, for the moment cause I cant find time for a relationship. But if anyone decided to volunteer herself or someone who decided to know me better, please do approach me and leave me comments. I will MAKE SURE I will come to you more better (ehem!!), with any satisfaction guaranteed!!

I think my squadmates havent know me too well. I know I have a complex character and I may not act my age, but that is just the beginning. People will know me better once I get comfortable with u all,k?? Im just slow at being comfortable with people whom I just met.

Havent been able to compose songs properly. Maybe it is due to tiredness and also the strict rule in barracks. Hmm... maybe I need to apply what i have learnt in HTA to my social life. HURRY UP AHHH!!!!!

13 Zulhijjah

Its another 9 more hours till i returned to my barracks @ HTA. SO much events are happening lately and Im feeling quite shagged over the weekend.

Firstly, I was in TTSH yesterday for more than 4 hours. My gastric problem got worse yesterday and to rub salt into my wounds, I overdosed more than 4 magnesium tablets and suddenly my skin felt that I was bitten by hundred of mosquitos. Was sent to hospital where i was kept under observation. Right now my tummy feels ok as I have burped more than I shit yesterday. But still haveto go on light duty as I have an MC from TTSH.

I would like to take an opportunity to congratulate my cousin, Nur Azilah as she's goin to tie the knot with her fiancee on Christmas Day. Christmas Eve will be a busy day for me as I need to be there to help out for the wedding. Another cousin tie the knot. When is goin to be my turn?

I think it is true that NS life travels so fast. PPl said you close your eyes and open it, suddenly u r nearing POP. Right now I am nearing IPPT. Feeling very nervous as the past 2 days I spent was lying on bed, recovering from the king of gastiris.

Well, there I go. Back to CAMP!!!!

11 Zulhijjah

Thanks to NS, I never felt so shagged in my life. Maybe it is due to my late night jogging during HRH eve and also the PTs in Home Team Academy.

I supposed to meet my bi on HRH eve and today but we often have to cancelled it the last minute. Supposedly NS and having a nurse girlfriend is not a good combination. But I really appreciate her, cuz she is not a very possesive partner and a very giving person. So bi, hope one day we can go out k.... Cuz i damn freaking miss you during bunk nights in HTA!!!

Currently my body feels so light as before. Maybe is due to streneous PT sessions and also on the run whenever in camp. Not really looking forward on Sunday, but for PT and body sake, Im on!! No more freaking LD!!!

Eversince being NSF personnel, my life feels so empty cuz Im being used to work in the morning. Therefore have to change my mindset every now and then.

And a very shocking news. My coy commander is a not-so-distant relative of mine. That makes him a not-so-distant cousin, who is just freaking 20 years old.

10 Zulhijjah

Finally have the time to blog.

Currently out of camp till sunday. NS for the first few weeks was a bit tough since im on Prep course. Means everyday of physical training and it really drains ur mind out if u are not mentally prepared. Furthermore, being assigned as the Squad Leader is a tough job and also u are always being looked up, if not setting a good example with squadmates.

Currently down with stomach flu. My squadmates thought I really "keng" but actually i do have gastiris, except that I dun like to be looked like ayam sakit.

NS really made me meet some new guys. The squad is ethnically diversed in terms of races. Therefore I need to be mentally open-minded to how I talked.

Next week will be my IPPT. Hope I will pass. Aiming to do 9 pull-ups and 2.4 km run of 10 mins plus.

30 Zulkaedah

This is my last entry before I'm off to Home Team Academy for my NS. ThereforeI should keep this short, simple and sweet.

I went to CWP to do last minute shopping for my NS. While having a light dinner at Banquet, saw someone from my past. Actually its not the first time I saw them, but aplenty of times. Its like so hard to continue the normal friendship we had for 4 years ago since you used to be so crazy about her. You also feel so sour when you think you had something in hand but at the last minute, it just flew away. Just like that. I saw her with her current bf. I think they did saw me, but I just didnt care to look or glance, cuz the strong feeling of confusion and feeling sour is still there. Especially you thought of the sweet moments you've had together.

But I have since move on. I met someone else three years ago. And now I dun want to let that chance go again especially when the feeling is so strong that I can blow up a bus(according to my sms to her). Hopefully everything goes well and to Yatie, may u take care of yourself while I'm away.

That's all folks. Told you I want to keep it short. Have a good life ahead and may you be well when I meet you somewhere after the next two weeks!!!